Someday.

I'm trying to get hold of myself at the moment. Release any negative and depressing thoughts in my mind and hmm, trying to be positive about everything. I've realized that I should love myself first, I should learn to let go of the past, and that everything has its own reasons.

PATIENCE shall be my virtue from now on.

Everything is just so vague. The pain does not go away. And if I don't do these things I just might be stupid enough to do such thing.

This wouldn't end here. I know.

I would never ever get tired of WAITING cos maybe, just maybe, someday everything will fall into its right place.

So I pray and pray and pray..

Naka-drugs eh noh.

Pucha, someone like talked to me after I got off the bus. And like asked me this inappropriate question. As in I answered with a big NO noh. Hahaha. Puch, badtrip 'yun ah. BUT well, it was kind of okay talking to her naman. Kasooo scary at the same time cos she looked like baliw noh. Eh kasii naman high ata sa drugs eh, drunk din. Jusko. Haha. Obvious daw na anoooo ehhhhh. Pero ewaan ko sakanya. Hahahaha. Mukha daw din akong lasing. Eh ano pa siya? Hahahahaha! And shiiit, she lives near our place lang so like mamaya makita ko siya and she knows where I live din so like mamaya pumunta na lang 'yun dito bigla. Hahahahaha. Shiit. Baliw 'yun eh. Hahahahaha, puch!

Hassle.

I left home the usual time. I took the 345 bus as always then got off at South Kensington Station. Then, a bus arrived na which I know is 414 naman. As in I looked at the label(?) talaga and it said 414, Maida Hill. So yeah, right on time lang papuntang school. But then I noticed that the bus was going sa wrong way na and so I thought na maybe may diversion or something, that maybe some roadwork is taking place near sa Knightsbridge. Pero after asking the person near me, I realized that I took the wrong bus pala. Eh 49 'yun so like it's papunta sa Kensington High Street pa. Hassle talaga. Good thing that there's a #10 bus going to Hyde Park Corner and from there I took the 414 bus. So yeah, got like 10 minutes before 9 I was in Edgware Road na & by 5-minute walk I'll arrive na sa skuul. Right on time lang. PERO eto EH (haha) my slippers got broken. As in after I got off sa bus as in nasira talaga. Puch, hassle talaga. & it was totally embarassing! Syeeeetttt! Hahahaha. And my ex-crush saw me pa. I was looked like super crippled and all. Jeez man, ang hirap noh. Hahahahaha. I was like planning to go home na nga eh cos wala akong makitang shop na malapit eh sa Oxford Street naman the shops are still closed and it's like super layo pa from there. Hello naman. Hahahaha. But good thing I have my stapler. Hahaha, syempre I stapled it na lang cos I don't want to skip skuul noh:P Haha, ewan. Nahiya talaga ako.. Tska I was worried pa and stuff kasii late na nga akoo.

But hmmmm made it all better.:) Hehe:P

Pero syeet ahh, I KNOOOOW talaga that it was 414. AS IN 414 talaga I just couldn't understand why biglang naging 49. I mean, 414 talaga eh. I made titig pa talaga sa bus number ehh. Hmm, that was freaky. Or maybe I hallucinated a bit or something. Pero.. that was the bus lang naman that arrived that time. Wala namang iba, ata(?). See, I really couldn't remember. That was all I could think of lang talaga sa bus. Hahahaha, labooo. Ewan. 414 'yun ehh. Hahahahahaha.

..it's gonna be okay

I tell that myself a million times these past few days cos if I don't I'm gonna be totally MORE than broken right now. As in. AS IN. I haven't cried since. Hmmm. Yeah.

Anyway, these past few days have been fun as well naman. They kind took my mind off things:)

Friday. Kim slept over here. Hahaha. As if it was the first time. He ALWAYS sleep here as in like every week ata and he always is the last one who falls asleep but this time syeeet 12 pa lang and he was snoring big time na. Syempre when we told him about it the next morning sobrang in denial talaga.. Eh kasi naman ako lagi pinupuna niya eh. I snore daaw palibhasa I sleep una most of the time. Hehe.

Saturday. Yeheeey. Happy 4th Birthday to our beautiful Kirsten!:) We decorated the hall in Fulham. Puro balloons and stuff. Nice! Syempre we were the ones who decorated it eh.. Hahahaha! Shiit, bigtime madness din and trippings. Laughed real hard cos we were playing with the balloons. Eh diba when you like inhaled the helium soobrang your voice is gonna be small, ehhh si Terence parang tanga. Hahahaha! Ayaaaaw pa nga namin umuwi ehh and we thought that we were gonna sleepover there. Hmmmf. Hehe. Tintin liked all of her gifts except the clothes! Mighad that little girl talagaaa... Hahahaha.

Sunday. We watched erhmm, Spiderman 3.Hmm, I didn't like it that much. Too much drama eh. What's up with EMO SPIDEY? Hehehe. He looked like Pete Wentz from Fall Out Boy:P Kuya Chris(?), 'yung Kinley and 'yung Ronaldo were with us. Hahahaha. It was my first time to hang out with them kasii eh. And Kuya Chris was totally naiilang pa talaga with us but hopefully masanay na siya soon cos he's gonna be seeing us ng matagal tagal pa. Hahahaha. I know though that he's kuul. Obvious naman ehh:P Oh yeah, we plan to go sa Thorpe park this half term! :) Yeeeeeey!

Today. They went here na naman. Sina Terence and Kim. Hmm. Kwento lang and stuff:)

Masaya. Oo, masaya. Kahit with in those very moments lang. At least, diba?:) Big help talaga. *sigh*

I hope this someone would call me na. Kailangan ko ng kausaaap! Please.

I believe.

No matter how screwed we are right now, I still am in love with you. I mean, that never changed and it won't ever will. I love you. I do. Hope you know that. We can get pass this. WE WILL GET PASS THIS.