ARRRRGGGHHHH!

OH, SHUUUUUUUUUT THE FUCK UP!!!!!!

Blaaah. blaaaahhhh. blaaaahhhh. dadadadadadadadadadada.

Dammit, you're blabbing for 30 minutes already. Tsss, hanggang dalawang oras na 'yan.

FUCK OFFFF!

Go and Shoot yourself.

Sorry for my previous post. I was like real mad lang yesterday and was actually fuming with rage; Being not able to let it out was fucking hard! If you have just seen my face, I was literally holding my cellphone hard and was about to throw it na buti na lang nacontrol ko pa sarili ko. I was about to cry nadin and gusto ko na itapon lahat ng gamit dito sa house. Mukha na nga akong dragonesa eh, hahahahahaha! SHIIT! I never had felt that kind of anger in my entire life before and sobrang I'm laughing my ass off now kasi ang petty lang ng reason. Stupid.

Richmond college or City of Westminster college?? Waaaah! Ewan ko pa. Choose. choose. choose.

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SALAMAT PO!!
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So I don't know yet which college I am going to choose, sooo people choose for me na lang :P

Richmond Upon Thames College
My class would be just 3 hours lang, 6:30-9:30 pm and every Tuesdays and Thurdays lang pero hello ang dilim na kaya nun. Eh pano na lang if winter na? Rarrr. For 30 weeks lang din pala. So ilang days lang ba 'yun? (7, 14, 21??) Sorry, medyo slow sa Math. And if I'd be studying here naman makakapag-take ako ng Photography kasi every Wednesday 'yun pero same time din. It's kind of far din; need to ride a train pa pero someone told me na 20 minutes lang daw 'yung travel time. Kailangan ko pang i-visit yung school. I don't know yet kung okay 'yung teaching nila and 'yung facilities. Need to consider din those things. SYEMPRE.

City of Westminster College
This college is nearer, 2 buses lang pero mas matagal 'yung travel time. I think I'm more familiar with this place kasi Picadilly lang (ata), basta. PERO THREE DAYS A WEEK and between 10 am-3pm. Hello naman ang tagal, eh ang tamad ko pa namang mag-aral. Tapos baka I won't be able to take up Photography nadin :( ANG ISA SA AKING MGA PINAPANGARAP! WAAH!

Shux, tuliro talaga ako. HAHAHAHAHAHA!

Ano ba? Ano ba? Ano ba talaga hija?
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blanko

SHIIIIIITTTTTTTTTT! I need to release my anger na or else sasabog na talaga ako.

....

Blah. blah. blah. blah. blah.

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Ang sarap manuntok, promise!!!!

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HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. ANG LABO KO!!! BALIW TALAGA AKO.

Pero galit talaga ako, swear. Sobrang galit.

RARRRRRRRR! ARRRRRRGGGGHHHHH!

FCUKITY FCUK FCUK FCUK!

Who knew? -Pink

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
ah huh that's right

I took your words
And I believed
In everything you said to me
yeah huh that's right

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Coz they're all wrong
I know better
Coz you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
oh no no no

I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you a friend
I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now
'Fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
But they knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who Knew

Yeah yeah

I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Coz they're all wrong and
That last kiss I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes it harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep you memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darlin' who knew

My darlin' my darlin' who knew
My darlin' I miss you
My darlin' who knew

Stupidity is the best policy.

Hahahahahahahahaha. Okay, just let me laugh real hard first. (inhale, exhale, inhale, exhale) Sorry!:P I'm just laughing because I find my cousin, my 34 year old cousin real stupid. Tssk. He ordered a Nokia 8800 kasi sa eBay 3 weeks ago and until now hindi pa nadedeliver. Eh, he has been contacting them for the past few days nadin; walang sagot. So he asked one of us to call Roshni, the eBay person tapos her mom answered the phone and said that she wouldn't be home yet till after midnight and when Ate Cathy told her the reason why she is calling; she just hung up. Wala nagtatago na 'yun. It was worth 250+ pounds pa naman. Tinawagan ulit, wrong number naman daw.

Why would you buy a cellphone sa eBay naman? Ang kuripot kasi! Hahahahaha! Pwede naman sa shops na mas sigurado kasi more or less same price lang 'yun. Harhar!

Wala talaga akong tiwala sa online stores..


Kwon Sang-Woo, Cholo in Stairway to Heaven. IS THIS LOOOOOOOOOVEEEEE? :)

Forgive me for my kababawan.

I just find this soooooo cute. Hahahahaha:P Eh what's the version of this naman kaya sa 'Pinas???? hmmmmm.

Nakiki-nakaw:P

This is simple. Just:

1. Emphasize all lines that apply to you.
2. Tag five more people after you finish, complete with links to their sites.
3. Let the person you've tagged KNOW that they've been tagged, for Pete's sake.

I wish I was a different ethnicity.
I have an eating disorder.
I'm short. [5'3, sobrang liit. Tsssk.]
I'm tall.
I think I'm really attractive. [Haha:P]
I prefer winter over summer. [Mas masarap ang malamig minsan;)]
I'm a geek.
I'm a shopaholic.
I'm reasonably intelligent.
I'm attracted to girls. [to attractive girls, lesbooooo harhar]
I'm attracted to boys. [Koreans, haha]
I like British accents.
I smoke regularly.
I drink regularly.
I smoke socially.
I drink socially.
I get drunk easily.
I do drugs.
I will never date a bad kisser.
I've lied to avoid kissing them again.
I brush my hair at least 50 times a night.
I'm religious.
I'm not religious but have morals.
I lie frequently.
I'm impulsive.
I'm hardworking.
I liked "Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind".
"She's All That" is one of my favourite movies.
I'm good at History. -dati lang 'yun
I speak more than two languages.
I enjoy taking pictures.
I like spending money on myself. -medyo kuripot ako sa sarili ko eh:P
I like spending money on others.
I have a regular income.
I earn money on a job-by-job basis.
I pay my own bills.
I rely on my parents for money.
I can cook. [Nako, buttered shrimp ang fave kong lutuin. Carbonara nadin]
I enjoy cleaning. [Mejo, can't take na super madumi ang place]
Tidyness is a must in my life.
I like clutter.
My idea of good music is Britney Spears.
I have heard of Blonde Redhead.
I enjoy Blonde Redhead.
I'm fashion-conscious.
I have good taste.
People tell me I have good taste.
I excel academically. -oh well, dati
I'm told I have yet to fulfill my potential.
I'm good at sports.
I'm good at certain sports. [Not that good, but at least I can do some sports]
I couldn't do sports to save my life.
I'm creative.
I'm artistically inclined.
I wanna be an artist when I grow up.
I wanna be an engineer when I grow up.
I eat when I'm upset. [Haha, kaya ang taba ko lagi akong upset]
I cannot adapt to change.
I'm interested in politics.
I have shoplifted.
I download MP3s.
I've done underage drinking.
I've gone underage clubbing.
I can dance reasonably well.
I can dance extremely well.
I dance like a cardboard gorilla.
I can sing. [Videoke Queen ako eh:P Kapal]
I sing like someone stepped on my foot.
I can swim. [Plain swimming lang.]
I enjoy surveys.
I enjoy surveys when I'm bored.
I keep a journal.
My teachers don't like me.
I enjoy controversy.
I can be a bitch/bastard.
I have a thing for bad boys/girls. [kuul kasi]
I have tattoos.
I've been in a nudist colony.
I'm not sure if I want to have children.
I'm not sure if I'll get married.
I know who I will marry.
I'm interesting.
I'm a good liar.
People enjoy talking to me.
I annoy people from time to time.
I'm a born leader.
I'm a born leader but shouldn't lead.
I enjoy felching.
I have a foot fetish.
I have a shoe fetish.
I watch "Sex and the City".
I don't think Sarah Jessica Parker is pretty. -sobrang ang pretty niya :)
I wanna be J.Lo.
I cut myself.
I've cut myself.
I hate people who pretend to be suicidal.
I hate popular people.
I think cheerleading is a sport.
I'm photogenic.
I live in Chucks.
I think graffiti is art.
I have dated a criminal.
I have been cheated on.
I have cheated on someone.
I have a temper.
I like playgrounds.
I dance in the rain.
I'm obsessed with Shakespeare.
I have tanlines.
My favourite color is pink.
My favourite color is black.
I would classify myself as emo.
I'm musically inclined.
I like listening to music.
I like music-blasting cars.
Thongs are comfortable.
I like flip-flops.
I know what monogamy is...
...and I believe in it.
I wanna be a social worker when I grow up.
I have sibling/s.
My sibling/s annoy me.
I think "South Park" is funny.
I believe in LOVE. [Yea, love;)]

Tag: Nadel, Hannah, Maksen, Tiff, Kevin

Hooked.

Hala, kakatapos lang naming manood ng MY GIRL. Ang ganda pala niya. Haha. Watch niyo sa youtube.com andon yung full episodes. Anong episode na ba siya sa 'Pinas? Haha. Ang gwapo ni Gong Chan? Ayy, Julian ata. Ang galing, ang ganda talaga. Pero hindi ko pa napapanood yung 1-11 episodes.

Gwapo ng mga Koreano. :P

'Twas hard

. . . real hard :(

Fine, I got to talk to you after gazillion months pero WHATEVER. Still feel sooo bad about it. Hindi ko na lang iisipin masyado.

Badtrip si Papa kagabi, nag-away nga kami. Btw, it was his birthday pala. Great, right? Haha.

Thank you ulit JUICEEEE for the header!:* Ang kyuut diba?:D

Fall apart again

I feel like shit. I seriously can't describe what I am feeling right now. I have to take this all out so I would somehow feel better. I have some issues with my family and some "stuffs" which guilt me. I feel so alone and don't have someone to talk to.

I am useless. I am irresponsible. No future, that's how they picture it.

Hopeless,

yahooooooo?

Finally, we already have an internet connection. Ang bobo talaga namin pwede pa lang i-safe mode para gumana yung internet. Hindi pa kasi totally ayos yung PC. Basta, may net na. Peroooo, ang dami naman naming gagamit. Hayayayay.

"How I wish that I could be there with you right now so that I could take care of you. I'm sorry. I'm really sorry."

Be invisible

I don't want to care anymore, I don't receive the respect I deserve anyway. Somehow, it's also my fault for I am not patient BUT that's just it. I'm not treated that way I NEED to be treated. So, WHATEVER. I won't be toooo pathetic about it.

Pictures:P

Si Bro at ako :P


Gwapo!


Bago gising


:) Wala lang

Thank you guys for the comments ulit! MUCH MUCH APPRECIATED :)

Love love,

Can I keep you in my world?

You never fail to surprise and amaze me with your brilliant personality. I adore you :)

Got to talk to Tina yesterday. Haha, baliw talaga yun. Gaga din AT miss ko na ng sobra. Awww... ;) Gusto ko ng pisilpisilin ang mga taba taba niya:P Wala lang, musta mustahan lang. Tawa tawa. Saya saya. :) BALIW! Hahahaha. Sayang 'coz it had to end but there still is next time pa naman. Mas mahaba para mas ma-engganyong (?) tawanan. Miss you na taba (ehem).

My Bestfriend sent me a card last Christmas pala and shit 'coz I wasn't able to receive it. 'Twas returned to her yesterday din. Why kaya? Hay, like nung parcel na pinadala ko last year (September) then hindi rin dumating tapos I paid 4 plus pounds for it tapos it was returned to me ng mga late February then I had to pay for it again. Badtrip talaga yun at buti naman at nareceive na. Lost letters and packages are sooo upsetting. Your money and effort are just wasted. Sorry bes!:(

It feels good when you're still in the before commitment stage. Sobrang butterflies in the stomach (hehe). Paramdaman. May understanding. And kinikilig ako ngayon! Hahahahaha, jologs! Naalala ko kasi 'yung akin.

1. Pumunta kaming Quantum. Naglaro siya ng basketball at tinanong kung anong gusto ko sa mga prizes. Tinuro ko (clueless) then I went out and waited. At boogsh, dala na niya yung mga pinili ko. Eh, konting time palang siya naglalaro. Ayon pala, iniipon na niya yung tickets dati pa.:)

2. Pumunta ako sa bahay nila. We watched a movie tapos super sweet niya. May iaabot siya pero hindi niya binibigay kasi nahihiya pero after 100,000,000 gazillion times of making pilit. Eto na din:


Sobrang ginitech pa niya 'yan :)

3. Pumupunta lang siya ng school para Makita ako pero hindi siya nagpapakita. I know kasi kung anong itsura ng car ng mom niya eh. Haha, at nakikita ko siya:P

4. Hawak ang aking kamay kapag magkasama kami although hindi pa kami.

5. Yung retreat letter niya and yung 10 na letters niya habang asa retreat ako. "Putol putol na naman tulog ko, I always wake up in the middle of the night" , "no goodnight from you again". Haha, kilig talaga

6. More than 100 text messages niya when I turned on my fone na just to say I miss you. (Retreat)

7. Sinusundo ako :)

Ang sarap talga kapag binabalikan. Ako kasi first na nagkagusto sa kaniya so nung mejo nagpaparamdam na siya. Whooooaaaaa talaga. :P

Eh kayo? Ano sainyo?

FOUND THIS IN MY OTHER BLOG: (Sobrang mushy talaga)
You give me the things I never asked for, you caress me with your love, you believe that we would be together forever and that just touches my heart. You love me because of my flaws and you're loving me even more as you discover more weird things about me. I don't know how I can thank you enough for the things even the little ones that you've done for me. And I also don't know how to let you feel how much I love you with all my heart, if shouting it to the whole world would make that even possible then I would definitely do that. What we have right now and what we would have in the future is all I care about. Loving you deeply is all I care about. By the time that we get together, I'm promising you that I won't leave you anymore. OH, how I love you.

SWEET TESTIMONIALS :)
I had no clue that one day someone like you would enter my life
I had no clue that one day I would think that youwere right
I had no clue that I would love your smile
I had no clue looking into your eyes would be worth while
I had no clue one day I would want you to be mine
I had no clue I would miss you
I had no clue I would meet someone as good as you
I had no clue I would feel so close to you
I had no clue you would stay in my mind like this
I had no clue I would have an attraction thatwouldn't quit
I had no clue that you would end up so far away
I had no clue that you would be back here someday
I had no clue you would be so into me
I had no clue that I would want you to bethe one for me


"baby, i love you even if the world is square. i love you if everything was colored green. i love you even if everyday was more than 24 hours. i love you even though were apart. i love you every second that my blood goes through my heart. i love you in every blink of an eye. i love you everytime a star twinkles in the sky. i love you every morning and everynight. i love you when the sea touches the shore. i love you everytime the wind blows the leaves. i love you even if saesons don't change. i love you even if the sun doesn't shine. i love you in every single drop of rain. i love you if fishes can't swim or if birds don't fly. i love you even if there are no clouds in the sky. i love you for every shooting star that falls. i love you even if we were on mars. i love you even if mt. everest was just a hill. i love you even if things are plainly black and white. i love you 'till i grow old. i love you every single second of my life. i love you always and forever. i love you yesterday, today and tomorrow."

AND I LOVE YOU TOO :)

I will follow you into the dark

Happy "nth" monthsary tomorrow! :)

Beybe, JUST STICK AROUND.

Thank you ulit guys for all the comments though not that much pero super appreciated talaga and as much as I want to visit all your blogs and comment in all your posts, I just can't coz I only have a maximum oh an hour per day. Pero tintry ko naman eh:) About the smoking thing, I won't ever ever smoke naman talaga eh kasi I find it real bad. I'm just curious how cig tastes like which makes me wanna try it. But I wont. I won't (Labo) 'coz I promised:) And I would keep that promise kasi I'm a good girl. :) Yey!