Rob Galleria

I always answer you vaguely whenever you ask me why I ditched you that day; why I left you hanging and just went out with my friends instead although you were the one I promised that I'd go out with. I didn't actually know what I was thinking that time. I got so scared and tensed cos I guess deep in my heart I knew that you were going to ask me to be yours. Of course, I didn't want to assume or anything but I felt that that was the "time". So weird, isn't it? That was the day that I had been all waiting for forever but then I ignored it, I ignored you and walked away and until now I still quite feel guilty about it and I guess that's the reason why I'm justifying for myself right now for me to able to let go somehow. I want to JUST let IT go..

That was yet the worst I felt that time ever, I kept on blaming myself the whole time I was out with them. I was literally crying my heart out while they were picking out things to buy. Why did I become so dumb? My bestfriend told me that I should just let it go cos it was clearly my fault but of course, I couldn't. I just couldn't. Can't believe that I chose that stupid Galleria over a special time with you.

You got mad at me, real mad. And I didn't know how I'd make it up with you because I knew that sorry wasn't just enough. You told me that maybe we weren't really meant to be together and so I was right, you were really supposed to ask me that time already. My heart had been like stabbed a million times hearing you say those words. I kept on winning you back then but you just had always turned me down. I knew that I deserved that cold-ice treatment.

I wanted to give up already because I felt that you didn't want me anymore, that you and me was never gonna happen. I was falling apart but then you came and saved me. I never felt more alive in my whole life.

That was the start of something new. You forgave and tried to understand me. And then I knew that it was really you I wanted to be with for a lifetime.

HMMM, I probably should tell you about all this now.