Drink 'till you drop.

I've been miserable for the past few weeks. As in sobra talaga. Kakaiba ito. My problems are all piling up na and I can't seem to solve any of them. I'm too stressed out. I need a drink. I need a break. I'm f*cking desperate already, man.

But at least Mae Ann and some friends make me feel better somehow. Pero I still feel sooo alone and all. Jeez, lagi na lang akong mukhang pathetic. I hate it. Oh I need to take this all out na. Or else I'm just gonna explode pretty badly. I can't do this all on my own because I know that I'm not that strong enough. I need someone. I need someone. I need you but I choose not to talk to you about it because I know that you can't help me either. And we've got problems on our own din. And it seems that I just can't simply talk to you; patuloy tuloy ka ng napapalayo eh.

I am lost. So lost.

I need to keep myself busy. Good thing I have school tomorrow. Absurd as it may sound, I seriously love going to school already. I love my Accounting course. I love (well not really that kind of love haha) my classmates although some of them are like older than me. I'm opening myself to them I just don't stay in the corner anymore, I socialize na and hindi na loner. They make me laugh although I don't get some of them and some are weird. Pero kaya nga napapatawa nila ako eh :P Basta, they're plain funny lang talaga. Kakaaliw because I have like super old na classmates. Hahahaha. But they're fun to be with parin :)

I want to meet more and more and more people and not just be a super bum here at home. I NEED A CHANGE. *sighs* But it's not going to be that easy.

Just have to stay positive. Sobrang ang negative thinker ko lang talaga. As in, grabe.

Anyway, I don't know why some people make things hard for themselves. Happiness is knocking on their doors na nga but they ignore and make their life miserable. Hay, go grab it. Take a chance. You'll never know, things might be different than what you have expected. You're afraid of getting hurt? Fine, I understand that but that's just part of life rather than spend all your life thinking of the what could have been(s) and should have been(s). You don't know how much I envy you. You get the chance to be happy tapos iniignore mo lang.