JUST LIKE THAT.

WORDPRESS

2007-06-03T10:19:00.000Z

I'm in wordpress na guys!

http://dutzylicious.worpress.com

Someday.

2007-05-17T12:05:00.000Z

I'm trying to get hold of myself at the moment. Release any negative and depressing thoughts in my mind and hmm, trying to be positive about everything. I've realized that I should love myself first, I should learn to let go of the past, and that everything has its own reasons.

PATIENCE shall be my virtue from now on.

Everything is just so vague. The pain does not go away. And if I don't do these things I just might be stupid enough to do such thing.

This wouldn't end here. I know.

I would never ever get tired of WAITING cos maybe, just maybe, someday everything will fall into its right place.

So I pray and pray and pray..

Naka-drugs eh noh.

2007-05-09T18:00:00.000Z

Pucha, someone like talked to me after I got off the bus. And like asked me this inappropriate question. As in I answered with a big NO noh. Hahaha. Puch, badtrip 'yun ah. BUT well, it was kind of okay talking to her naman. Kasooo scary at the same time cos she looked like baliw noh. Eh kasii naman high ata sa drugs eh, drunk din. Jusko. Haha. Obvious daw na anoooo ehhhhh. Pero ewaan ko sakanya. Hahahaha. Mukha daw din akong lasing. Eh ano pa siya? Hahahahaha! And shiiit, she lives near our place lang so like mamaya makita ko siya and she knows where I live din so like mamaya pumunta na lang 'yun dito bigla. Hahahahaha. Shiit. Baliw 'yun eh. Hahahahaha, puch!

Hassle.

2007-05-09T17:54:00.000Z

I left home the usual time. I took the 345 bus as always then got off at South Kensington Station. Then, a bus arrived na which I know is 414 naman. As in I looked at the label(?) talaga and it said 414, Maida Hill. So yeah, right on time lang papuntang school. But then I noticed that the bus was going sa wrong way na and so I thought na maybe may diversion or something, that maybe some roadwork is taking place near sa Knightsbridge. Pero after asking the person near me, I realized that I took the wrong bus pala. Eh 49 'yun so like it's papunta sa Kensington High Street pa. Hassle talaga. Good thing that there's a #10 bus going to Hyde Park Corner and from there I took the 414 bus. So yeah, got like 10 minutes before 9 I was in Edgware Road na & by 5-minute walk I'll arrive na sa skuul. Right on time lang. PERO eto EH (haha) my slippers got broken. As in after I got off sa bus as in nasira talaga. Puch, hassle talaga. & it was totally embarassing! Syeeeetttt! Hahahaha. And my ex-crush saw me pa. I was looked like super crippled and all. Jeez man, ang hirap noh. Hahahahaha. I was like planning to go home na nga eh cos wala akong makitang shop na malapit eh sa Oxford Street naman the shops are still closed and it's like super layo pa from there. Hello naman. Hahahaha. But good thing I have my stapler. Hahaha, syempre I stapled it na lang cos I don't want to skip skuul noh:P Haha, ewan. Nahiya talaga ako.. Tska I was worried pa and stuff kasii late na nga akoo.

But hmmmm made it all better.:) Hehe:P

Pero syeet ahh, I KNOOOOW talaga that it was 414. AS IN 414 talaga I just couldn't understand why biglang naging 49. I mean, 414 talaga eh. I made titig pa talaga sa bus number ehh. Hmm, that was freaky. Or maybe I hallucinated a bit or something. Pero.. that was the bus lang naman that arrived that time. Wala namang iba, ata(?). See, I really couldn't remember. That was all I could think of lang talaga sa bus. Hahahaha, labooo. Ewan. 414 'yun ehh. Hahahahahaha.

..it's gonna be okay

2007-05-07T19:48:00.000Z

I tell that myself a million times these past few days cos if I don't I'm gonna be totally MORE than broken right now. As in. AS IN. I haven't cried since. Hmmm. Yeah.

Anyway, these past few days have been fun as well naman. They kind took my mind off things:)

Friday. Kim slept over here. Hahaha. As if it was the first time. He ALWAYS sleep here as in like every week ata and he always is the last one who falls asleep but this time syeeet 12 pa lang and he was snoring big time na. Syempre when we told him about it the next morning sobrang in denial talaga.. Eh kasi naman ako lagi pinupuna niya eh. I snore daaw palibhasa I sleep una most of the time. Hehe.

Saturday. Yeheeey. Happy 4th Birthday to our beautiful Kirsten!:) We decorated the hall in Fulham. Puro balloons and stuff. Nice! Syempre we were the ones who decorated it eh.. Hahahaha! Shiit, bigtime madness din and trippings. Laughed real hard cos we were playing with the balloons. Eh diba when you like inhaled the helium soobrang your voice is gonna be small, ehhh si Terence parang tanga. Hahahaha! Ayaaaaw pa nga namin umuwi ehh and we thought that we were gonna sleepover there. Hmmmf. Hehe. Tintin liked all of her gifts except the clothes! Mighad that little girl talagaaa... Hahahaha.

Sunday. We watched erhmm, Spiderman 3.Hmm, I didn't like it that much. Too much drama eh. What's up with EMO SPIDEY? Hehehe. He looked like Pete Wentz from Fall Out Boy:P Kuya Chris(?), 'yung Kinley and 'yung Ronaldo were with us. Hahahaha. It was my first time to hang out with them kasii eh. And Kuya Chris was totally naiilang pa talaga with us but hopefully masanay na siya soon cos he's gonna be seeing us ng matagal tagal pa. Hahahaha. I know though that he's kuul. Obvious naman ehh:P Oh yeah, we plan to go sa Thorpe park this half term! :) Yeeeeeey!

Today. They went here na naman. Sina Terence and Kim. Hmm. Kwento lang and stuff:)

Masaya. Oo, masaya. Kahit with in those very moments lang. At least, diba?:) Big help talaga. *sigh*

I hope this someone would call me na. Kailangan ko ng kausaaap! Please.

I believe.

2007-05-02T09:33:00.000Z

No matter how screwed we are right now, I still am in love with you. I mean, that never changed and it won't ever will. I love you. I do. Hope you know that. We can get pass this. WE WILL GET PASS THIS.

Coffee Addiction.

2007-04-30T10:51:00.000Z

I've had too much coffee already to think that it's just past 11. Hindi rin ako nag-breakfast kaya ayan tuloy sooobrang my head aches talaga. And jeeez, 'yung bladder ko. Hahahahaha. Shiiiz, dapat din nga di ako papasok ehhhhh.

Share lang.

& as you all can see, I changed my layout again. And I shall stick with this for a very loooong time, hehe. :) Wala lang.

Gago ka, Sabrina

2007-04-26T00:58:00.000Z

Hahaha. Badtrip, naputol! Namiss ko agad kagaguhan mo. Wahahaha.

Tinatamad pa ako mag-ayos ng blog. Eto lang ang nahanap kong maayos na template. Nabubulok na ehhhhh.

No worries

2007-04-23T22:28:00.000Z

Finally, they bought us a new CPU and FINALLY, fixed na 'yung internet. Hooooo. It fucks up lang most of the time. Fuck Homechoice. Can't install Chikka din, badtrip. Hahaha. Ewan. Rumandom talaga.

Shiiiiit, talked to my Baby a.k.a Ivz and Bestfriend last Friday. Hahahaha. Astiiig. I wasn't actually planning on calling them pero wala eh, namimiss ko na ng sooobra. Awww, Ivz would be migrating na sa Canada and they'll be leaving sa May:( Saad, sooobra cos I won't be able to see her foooor a looong looong time na naman. As in, hindi ko man lang maaabutan. Hmmmff. Oh well, told her that I'll be visiting her there sooon. Hahaha. And yeah, call her since it's much cheaper. And bestfriend naman is planning to study Medicine here. I hope her Auntie finds a job na para at least okay na. Fingers crossed lang.

Shiiit (again), sabi ko na nga ba there's definitely still hope. Okay, I don't wantna jinx it so I won't tell anyone yet. Basta. I don't wanna get tooooo excited about it as well cos I might just get too disappointed again! Basta, steady lang talaga. Kaya bestfriend, hindi ko na pala sasabihin sa'yo. Hahahaha. It made me real smile yesterday talaga. Steeeaaady lang, dear..

I'll get back to work na. Still need to finish my coursework. Darn.

Teeheeee

2007-04-19T10:16:00.001Z

A rockstar invited me in Myspace. Hahahahahaha! Whatever. ;) Mind you people, he's hooot. Hahahahaha!

X/S.
He's the vocalist and lead guitarist pala and his name is JEREMIE BENJAMIN. THE PEAKS is the name of the band and they have a tour here in London in 4 months time. Well, I'm listening to some of their songs right now and I'm lovin' it:) Hehe. So guys better checkout their Myspace account and their site.

Oh yeah, a video din which I got from YouTube :)

Oo na, crush ko na siya. Hahaha. Duh, kilig nung minessage ako noh. Hahahaha.

Crap.

2007-04-17T16:23:00.000Z

Fuck, I hate it. SO much.

my hottie librarian, you look so well, hot with your eyeglasses on :) hihi.

Mushy.ness

2007-03-30T13:31:00.000Z

All my life, all I have ever wanted was someone who would love me for who I am, someone who would just stick around, and someone who I'd love more than I love myself..

Then you came along, and I never wanted for more.

Run with me through rows of speeding cars

2007-03-23T10:22:00.000Z

* Talked to Him. And it felt great. Haven't done that in ages. I've been putting Him off for the past months. Actually, for the past 2 years. I don't know why, I just kept on ignoring Him and took Him for granted. But I know that we're okay now. I explained, said sorry, told Him stories and shared a lot of stuff about what's going on in my life. That no matter how crappy and depressing everything is I know that He would be just be with me. He just listened to every word that I was saying and I felt at ease whilst talking to Him. It was amazing. Really really amazing. Can't wait for our next session! :)

* I used to care for you. I used to be happy and relieved that you're just there. And I used to love you. But now everything has just changed. I don't know why exactly. It's like you're a different person now. It's like I got really disappointed when I got to know the real you. And I just learned how to hate you. That the more I get to be with you, the more I can't stand you. Hay, it hurts not to love you anymore. I dunno.

* I hope you two could still work it out. I really really hope so. :(

* A lot of people told me na "hanga" daw sila with our relationship. That despite the distance we still manage to work it out. It's, I think, because we believe, we never stop hoping and loving. That no matter how much we fight and all, we just know that this won't ever end anymore. Cos we believe in US. I know that you know that we really are different. As in, magkaiba talaga. But we get to love each other more despite our differences. I don't know really if everything's okay with us right now. Basta, I'm gonna talk to you na talaga.

* It sucks cos I haven't watched MSKM for two months now. Arrrgh. And American Idol pisses me off na, why is it that those great singers are the ones sent home? :(

* GUSTO KO NG UMUWI! Rawr. Hahahaha :D

EWAN.

2007-03-22T12:18:00.000Z

Hahahaha. EWAN KO NA TALAGA. Anyway, yesterday was real crappy. Basta, YUN NA YUN. I don't want to go further into details. Let's just say na I STILL CAN'T LET IT GO. Hahahaha. EWAN. But dinner was fuuuuun! As in tawa to the max talaga. Tito Noe kasi was real funny. Basta. Comedy eh. Sobra.

I'm currently taking an online practice test for Bristish Citizenship. Yea, that's right in few hours time if I am able to pass the exam eh di Citizen na ako dito. Haha. EWAN. I don't even care if I'd pass the test or not. Basta, it doesn't matter to me lang. Pero yeah, it has some advantages din pero EWAN padin. Hahahaha. Sorry, laboooo. I'm so pressured na with skuul. I haven't edited the paper pa for 23 and started the paper for 22 naman. Arrrgh. Hahaha. Oh well.

My layout's image is from Devianart pala and it features Death from Sandman series by Neil Gaiman. :) Ciao!

P.S. The hottie librarian made my day! ;)

WASTED.

2007-03-19T17:27:00.000Z

hahahahahahaha :D

...

2007-03-19T09:02:00.000Z

Still can't get over "it".

It's eating my heart and brains out.. :(

!@!*!

2007-03-17T14:36:00.000Z

GALIT AKO. GALIT NA GALIT AKO SA GINAWA MO. CAN'T BELIEVE YOU! HINDI MO MAN LANG INISIP KUNG ANONG MAFFEEL KO. EWAN KO. BAHALA KA. IT HURTS. YOU JUST DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH. I KEEP ON PICTURING THE "THING" IN MY HEAD. IT'S GONNA BE HARD TO GET OVER IT. YEA, IT'S NOT LIKE YOU CHEATED OR SOMETHING BUT I'M SORRY COS I JUST CAN'T ACCEPT NA GINAWA MO 'YUN KNOWING THAT IT WOULD HURT ME A LOT AND THAT IT WAS SOOOOO WRONG. PFFFT.

Bliss.

2007-03-13T17:31:00.000Z

Grabe, everything's turning out great. I am happy. I am inlove. So inlove with you, babe. You're indescribably amazing. Wonderful in every single way. I won't fucking trade you for anything in the world. Having you is just enough. In fact, even MORE than enough. Loving you is all I wanna do for a lifetime. Hay, I don't know what else to say just so the whole world will know how much I love you. Basta, yun na yun. Alam mo na 'yun. At ikaaaw, ikaaaaw, ikaaaaw na :)

At grabe ah, nakakatunaw 'yung mga sinabi mo kanina. Sobra :D Hehe!

Nyay.

2007-03-10T15:38:00.000Z

You made me laughed so hard today. I've never laughed like that since like forever? Haha. We talked and fooled around. That just felt so great. Oh, I'm loving you even more. I can't wait to be with you. I can't wait to start buying pasalubongs for you. Well, ini-isa isa ko na. Hahahahaha. :D You're just amazing really. Really really amazing.. AND HOT! :D Hehe.

i just KNOW.

2007-03-08T14:20:00.001Z

We're both aligned in framed of mind but circumstance has got us good
And now you're seeing a side of me I wished no one ever would
Yeah, if it's right to pick a fight, we're fingers in a sugar bowl
Love isn't perfect, even diamonds start out as coal

C'mon, in spite of this we're doing just fine
Even diamonds start as coal
Give us time to shine
Even diamonds start as coal

Give it time girl, the fire feels divine
The sweetest things they burn before they shine
We think way too much
Look at us losing touch
A promise is a promise until...
-Diamonds and Coal, Incubus

We're gonna do fine. I know. I JUST know. Kahit sobrang nag-aaway tayo, which is mostly my fault, everything will still turn out okay. I super believe in us, you know? I love you babe.

Eleven Minutes

2007-03-08T13:27:00.000Z

Profound desire, true desire is the desire to be close to someone. From that point onwards, things change, the man and the woman come into play, but what happens before - the attraction that brought them together - is impossible to explain. It is untouched desire in its purest state.

When desire is still in the pure state, the man and the woman fall in love with life, they live each moment reverently, consciously, always ready to celebrate the next blessing.

When people feel like this, they are not in a hurry, they do not precipitate events with unthinking actions. They know that the inevitable will happen, that what is real always finds a way of revealing itself. When the moment comes, they do not hesitate, they do not miss an opportunity, they do not let slip a single magic moment, because they respect the importance of each second.

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Freedom only exists when love is present. The person who gives hom or herself wholly, the person who feels freest, is the person who loves wholeheartedly.

And the person who loves wholeheartedly feels free.

In love no one can harm anyone else; we are each of us responsible for our own feelings and cannot blame someone else for what we feel.

No one loses anyone because no one owns anyone.

That is the true experience of freedom: having the most important thing in the world without owning it.

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A writer once said that it is not time that changes a man, nor knowledge; the only thing that can change someone's mind is love. What nonsense! The person who wrote that clearly knew only one side of the coin.

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Love was undoubtedly one of the things capable of changing a person's whole life, from one moment to the next.

But there was the other side of the coin, the second thing that could make a human being take a totally different course from the one he or she had planned; and that was called despair.

Yes, perhaps love really could transform someone, but despair did the job more quickly.

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When we meet someone and fall in love, we have a sense that the whole universe is on our side. And yet if something goes wrong, there is nothing left! How is it possible for the beauty that was there only minutes before to vanish so quickly? Life moves very fast. It rushes from heaven to hell in a matter of seconds.

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Everyone knows how to love, because we are all born with that gift. Some people have a natural talent for it, but the majority of us have to re-learn, to remember how to love, and everyone, without exception, needs to burn on the bonfire of past emotions, to relive certain joys and griefs, certain ups and downs until they can see the connecting thread that exists behind each new encounter; because there is a connecting thread.

Jason Mraz

2007-03-06T13:32:00.000Z

OH, I'm inlove with him. Like really really inlove. Hahaha. :D

And it takes no time to fall in love
but it takes you years to know what love is
and it takes some fears to make you trust
it takes those tears to make it rust
it takes the dust to have it polished
- Life is Wonderful

Whatever.

2007-03-05T10:38:00.000Z

No, I didn't lose my links. They're still here with me and I'll try to visit them one by one next time.

Dutzy just wants a very very simple layout.. Hehe.

Coke Addict.

2007-03-02T10:27:00.000Z

I wasn't able to sleep last night because of too much coke. Good thing that I don't have class today kasi sick daw si Bernard. Nyuurf. Pero I'm in skuul though cos I need to do my courework kasi broken parin si PC. Tsk. I think that they might need to buy us a new one na cos there is no way na maayos pa 'yun. Yay.

Currently reading Anansi Boys.. And so far, sooo good. Impeccably amazing. Hmm, maybe that kept me awake last night. I just couldn't stop reading kasi eh. Hehe.

I have a super classmate named Maaza and she super looks like Halle Berry. I love her super shot hair a lot. It fitted her. Really nice. Anyway, she is a great person naman pero there's something annoying with her personality and this is the way she bugs me whenever we're in class, whenever I'm not in the mood and whenever she just wants to. Bitch. She can also be really bossy at times but I love love her though. Oh yeah, and I treat her just the same pala. Hahahahaha. :D It is great talking to her about stuff especially last Wednesday when we talked about religion stuff and even if she's not sure if she's even a Catholic, she still got to advise me and it did made me think. It's like she made some things clear for me. Basta, she's great. All of them are..

I have my Hottie #1 and Hottie #2. Hmm, I'll show you the pic of Mr. Hottie #2 kapag na-upload ko na. Kaso side view lang eh, sayang. He's chinito by the way. Basta, handsome. Hahaha. And si Mr. Hottie #1, crush ko talaga 'yun supeer kaya I'm really really shy whenever he's around. Hahahahaha. Syempre, kaya whenver I have time I always go sa library para makita ko siya. Hahahaha. Joke lang:P Katawa naman 'yun sooobra. Ayy, yeah one time grabe talaga cos I borrowed this book tapos siya sa checkout counter.. hello naman, nahiya talaga ako ehh. Feeling ko magffaint na ako. Hahahaha. Naku, when I get the chance to take a picture of him na kahit na I know na medyo it would take a long time pa cos it would be really really obvious, I'll show you guys talaga. Pero wala, may MUCH MUCH HOTTER sa kanilang dalawa. Wala talagang tatalo dun. Oooppps, sino kaya 'yun? Eh 'yun talaga proven na hott. Hahahahaha. Oh, eh bakit abot tenga na ngiti mo dyan? :P

Ewan ko baaa.. Whenever I'm around my crushes talaga, I just want to like hide and everything. Hahahaha. Masyadong kinikilig. Tssk, like nung dati. Basta, 'yung dati. Basta. Yun na un. Kakahiya soooobra. Hahahahahaha. :D

Oh siya, that's all. I'm gon go home now and watch Friends :))

P.S. You are the love of my life. :)

ZARA is haunting me.

2007-03-01T13:53:00.000Z

Nuthin' much. Just a little update kasi feeling ko lang medyo I'm abandoning na my blog. So someone suprised me last Tuesday and it made my day so special. Basta, it made me smile talaga. Big time. At I can't get over it. Oo, until now. Sorry naman someone's luukin' real hott talaga eh. Hahaha. :)

Ayun. 'Yun lang naman. Saw some kyuut shirts for you. Bibilhin ko talaga 'yun. Ang gaganda eh. Basta. Basta talaga. Hehe. Hope you'd like them, though. Di ko pa nga nabibili eh no? Hahaha. Wait ka lang :D

Wow, can't believe I ENJOY going to skuul na. As in ENJOY talaga kahit na medyo boring 'yung lesson at times. Pwede na nga akong model student eh. Hahaha! :P

Un. Un lang naman ulit..

Rebel Yell

2007-02-23T14:37:00.000Z

No, wag niyo laging isipin na kayo lagi ang tama. Wag na kayong manumbat.

At oo, I can take care of myself na. Kayang kaya ko na ang sarili ko. Just wait 'till I get a job. I won't definitely ask for anything anymore. Sabagay, I don't ask too much naman.

Whenever we try to explain/defend our side, isa lang ang nasa isip niyo and that is we haven't got respect for you. Mali bang for once we'd stand up for what we believe in? And pwede bang for once you'd lower your pride and just accept that you are the ones who are wrong. Ewan ko. I don't get myself too affected at times. Iniignore ko na lang but this time it's too much. It's fucking too much already. We do whatever you ask us to do naman.

Bahala na kayo. I won't really care this time na. As. in. I. don't. care. BIG. TIME.

And you, you are soooo getting on my nerves. You are the most hypocritical person ever!! Ang papel mo masyado. Nakakainis. Hindi na nga pinapansin at nananahimik na nga eh pero wala, inoopen mo pa din. Eh anong point mo? Tss.

S.

2007-02-19T12:18:00.000Z

Awww.. I've missed you and I only got to realize it now. Grabe, I was actually sobrang nagtatampo cos you didn't greet me nung birthday ko pero you texted me pala. Bad thing is, you were texting the wrong number the whole time. Buti na lang I had the courage to ask you myself in IM. I mean, I was mad at you for the "thing" that you have done and for hurting someone I care about. As in big time talaga but I had finally got to let go of my grudge against you.

I thought I knew you all along but you've changed and I didn't like the person you've had become but I know though that I am still going to love the new you because it simply is you.

& I don't want to feel the pain of losing an amazing friend like you.

We're finally getting back on track again. :))

Hindi ka sanay, alam ko. Drama. Pero ewan ko sa'yo! Hahahahaha :P

best "F*CK" friend

2007-02-16T08:42:00.000Z

hahahahahahaha! yes, you are my best "f*ck" friend you crazy byotch. i love you!!

ooopsss, cut my hair short (well, si diane 'yung pinaggupit ko hehe). finally. it's much nicer now :P

can't access the MSKM episodes in you tube. shit talaga. i so want to watch it na.

OF COURSE, shopping! pucha, sshopping talaga tayo. & since i'm not the one who's gonna pay for my shopping expenses.. okaaaay lang. hahahahaha. naging makapal masyado.

ang high ko..

hot stuff

2007-02-15T17:19:00.000Z

oh my librarian.. :)

anyway, belated happy heart's day..

Rob Galleria

2007-02-01T13:22:00.000Z

I always answer you vaguely whenever you ask me why I ditched you that day; why I left you hanging and just went out with my friends instead although you were the one I promised that I'd go out with. I didn't actually know what I was thinking that time. I got so scared and tensed cos I guess deep in my heart I knew that you were going to ask me to be yours. Of course, I didn't want to assume or anything but I felt that that was the "time". So weird, isn't it? That was the day that I had been all waiting for forever but then I ignored it, I ignored you and walked away and until now I still quite feel guilty about it and I guess that's the reason why I'm justifying for myself right now for me to able to let go somehow. I want to JUST let IT go..

That was yet the worst I felt that time ever, I kept on blaming myself the whole time I was out with them. I was literally crying my heart out while they were picking out things to buy. Why did I become so dumb? My bestfriend told me that I should just let it go cos it was clearly my fault but of course, I couldn't. I just couldn't. Can't believe that I chose that stupid Galleria over a special time with you.

You got mad at me, real mad. And I didn't know how I'd make it up with you because I knew that sorry wasn't just enough. You told me that maybe we weren't really meant to be together and so I was right, you were really supposed to ask me that time already. My heart had been like stabbed a million times hearing you say those words. I kept on winning you back then but you just had always turned me down. I knew that I deserved that cold-ice treatment.

I wanted to give up already because I felt that you didn't want me anymore, that you and me was never gonna happen. I was falling apart but then you came and saved me. I never felt more alive in my whole life.

That was the start of something new. You forgave and tried to understand me. And then I knew that it was really you I wanted to be with for a lifetime.

HMMM, I probably should tell you about all this now.

'M kuul like dat (HAHA)

2007-01-25T12:37:00.000Z

Lemme tell you looot how mah dineeeeer peeertty went...

And zoh a looot of pipz came. Da kuulezt pinoys evaaaah.. We drank and peeerrrtty da night awaay,, CHEERS TO DOTZ; CHEERZ TO DUTZ.. They dunno how to spell mah effing nickname, some even thought that it waz DOODS. HAHA. and so they juz knew that it is really DUTZ when they saw it posted on the wall. FREEEAAAAKERZZZZ... WAHAHAHA!! Jack Daniel's and Cockburners?? (pucha, the best red wine evaaaah)

I wazz fucking weeyzted & yeah got a pic that would prove that. Hehe. Sayang coz not much pichuurs were taken only a videow but I ain't gon show it to you loot coz I'm a beri beri shy pehson. HAHAHAHA. But it wazz really fuun. Ecztaatic beybe!! Ohhh.. Goldie invited me to go clubbin' with her.. Maybe next month.. She wazz like: We'll get drunk togetha'. I'll look after you when we get drunk. Sweetnezzz. Hahahaha.

'M 18 and now legal. Yeazzz mahn!

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Our computah's dead. No operating syztem. No recovehry dizk. It's fuhcked up. Seriuzzly fuhcked up. Tsss. Oh well, juzz can't wait foh mah laptop.. :)

pizzawt nigaazzz:P

HAHAHAHAHA!

Shivers.

2007-01-24T08:58:00.000Z

It snowed:)

Nice!!

wink

2007-01-19T21:32:00.000Z

"Babe, I know "I LOVE YOU" are just plain words. But when I say them, I mean every single word & "U" is the most important part of that phrase cos without U, I won't love & mostly without U, there's no "I".

Awwwww.. :)) I am supaaaaah LOVED :)

Anyway, thank you sa mga naggreet at regards sa mga nakalimot. Hahahahaha! :)) Pero tssss, I'm supeeeer tampo sa ilang tao diyaaan. Tssss.

18 na ako but I still act immaturely. Pero okay lang sabi naman niya love niya ako for who I am eh. *wink*

Dinner tomorrow and Mum's super funny. Naglagay nga ng designs & balloons. And yeah, she gave me 20 pcs. of tulips. :)

someday.

2007-01-14T22:14:00.001Z

I'm gonna turn 18 in two day's time. Wow, 18. Tsss, it's actually kind of depressing. Hahahahaha. Ewan ko ba. Weird. So no biggie biggie celebration since I'm not into those kinds of things naman pero yeah, medyo.. Basta! Hahahaha, laboooo. Sooo I don't know what I'm gonna do on that day since sa 20th pa naman yung dinner with family friends. Bahala na, I'm gonna make sure that I'd still enjoy. Gonna buy a dress na lang and some stuff. Oh, I might actually have the Sony Vaio na. Yey, yey, yey! I don't like the C series na pink na since it's too girly soo yung SZ series na lang na chique style model :)

Anyway, Thor and I are planning to have our post post birthday celebration when I get back since wala rin naman daw siyang gagawin on her birthday. Para ma-reunite na ulit ang Mechers :) Can't wait. We'll make sure na everyone comes :)

Ayy, natawa ako sa birthday message ko. Hahahahaha. Okaaaay, nung binasa niya sakin 'yan medyo sooobrang kumorny ata. Hahahahaha. Wala lang. Sorry for the nonsense posts lately :)

Love love tulips and daisies :)

Birthday message

2007-01-07T18:10:00.000Z

My everyday just ends up perfectly for I have you with me. Maybe not physically but I know though that we have each other heart to heart. There's a connection that binds us, a connection that binds our hearts.

I'm entirely not good in giving birthday messages but this is the least that I can do for your birthday, to make your birthday at least extra special. To be honest with you, I feel extremely sad right now. Well yeah, after talking to you awhile ago, I just broke down and cry because I miss you a lot and I'm missing out on every little thing that is about you.

But you know why I'm thankful despite of all these?

It's because I have you, because I still have you and because I know that I will still have you in the future and that I know in my heart that you’re that person I would want to have forever. The distance may have made us struggle a lot but it have made our relationship stronger, having you in my life feels so damn great.

Babe, you are an amazing person. I may have told you this a lot of times already But I guess I just want to tell you over and over again for you to bear in mind that you really are. Really really are. You’re super nice, funny and all you know.

Haha! It seems like I'm making sipsip or making you feel good because it's your birthday huh? Haha.

I really suck at this, don't I?

Anyway, Happy happy happy 20th birthday. You know I love you so much. And I love you and I love you over and over again. I love you more than ever. I love you yesterday, tomorrow and today. I love you. I love you, I just super love you. You will always have me. Thank you for having me and for letting me enter in your life.

Have fun today, alright? Mwah!

Under construction

2007-01-05T15:17:00.000Z

See how bilis I get bored with my layout. Hehe.

Gon fix soooooon, zzzzzzz. I'm tired. I want it to be Livejournal-ish.

/Edit/:
Ayan, ayan. Tapos na ho. Ginaya ko lang yung sa LJ ko. Nakyuutan kasi ako sa background and style sa LJ ko ehhh. Buti pa dun hindi ako palit ng palit, ang tagal na ata nung layout ko na 'yun eh. Haha, ewaaan ko baaa. Binalik ko na din yung tagboard ko. Ay naku, wala naman atang dumadaan sa blog na ito ehhh. HMMMMMFFF! Hahaha, oh well ayos lang naman *sabay simangot* Hindi ngaaa ayooos lang *sabaaay iyak* HAHAHAHAHAHAHA, jolog. Shiiiiiit. Grabe noh, ang tagal kong natulog. Hindi pa nga dapat ako gigising eehhhh, pinilit ko lang kahiiit na hindi ko padin mamulat ng maayos ang aking mga mata. As in yung exaggeee ahhhh. Pero well, pinilit ko pa nga din. Labooooo. Shush, weekend na naman. Sa Monday birthday na ni Love (haha). ADVANCE! :P

Ayy, katext ko si Macs :) Hehe. Well, not really. Pero good good. BASTAAAAAAAAH!

Ayon lang. Sana naman may mag-visit diba??? :P
/Edit/

Lucky Bitch

2007-01-03T00:24:00.000Z

Supaaaaaaah LUUUCCCCKKKKKYYY :))

Oh, I am sooooo loved :) Shiiit, I want to spend my whoooooole life with you. I love you soooo much!

ANYWAY, enough of mushyness:P I got a class tomorrow na but I'm still ever up and I need to wake up early pa. Hello naman? Hahahaha. Eh kasii I want to watch Prison Break eh, my sister discovered a site where in you can watch a looot of movies and TV shows and cartooons and stuffff. Basta, ang kuuul talaga. The site has One Tree Hill, The O.C, Prison Break, Grey's Anatomy, Lost, Ugly Betty and a whooooole loooot mooooooore!!!! SHIIIIT, todo watch na talaga ito :) Hahahahaha! I might need glasses na. Tssssk:P Haha!

Just clicky this site na lang, PEEKVID.

Ooooooopssss, got to go now! I'll watch my hottie boyplen na:P

Enjoooy guys!

Ay DARN, I have Simulation Exams pala on 3 Units on the 15th, haven't studied yet. Goodluck na lang, diba? Ewan:( Buti na lang I kind of finished my paper na. Gon let my teacher go over it tomorrow. Tsss.

Babay ulit.

Official

2007-01-01T01:38:00.000Z

It's already 2007 here in London :) Hahaha, late na eh noh? Well, mas late sa New York:P Anyway, we're currently here in Tito Efren's flat na. Sinalubong ang New Year dito whilst watching the New Year live coverage sa BBC ONE. Grabe noh, ang daming taong soooobrang pumunta pa talaga sa may London Eye, Buckingham Palace and Somerset. Siksikan talaga. Hahahaha. New Year naman eh. Grabe din cos the fireworks were ubeeeeeer fabulouso, they really are preparing for the Winter Olympics na sa 2011. Whoooooa, masyadong gumalante ata :) I wish I was there, it could have been nicer pero ayoko namang sumiksik. Yikes.

2007 na talaga. I'm not looking forward to anything. I mean, not really. Labooooo. Ayoko lang masyadong i-broadcast at baka you knooooow:P

Suprisingly, I really am not that afraid in facing this year. It actually excites meeeee :) Hmmmmmmmmm.

Goodluck guys for TWO THOUSAND AND SEVEN! :) 365 more days until 2008. Haha! Ano yun?:P

Happy 2007!

2006-12-31T08:23:00.001Z

"Let this coming year be better than all the others. Vow to do some of the things you've always wanted to do but couldn't find the time. Call up a forgotten friend. Drop an old grudge, and replace it with some pleasant memories. Vow not to make a promise you don't think you can keep. Walk tall, and smile more. You'll look ten years younger. Don't be afraid to say, 'I love you'. Say it again. They are the sweetest words in the world."
Ann Landers

/Edit/
Hey guys, we're here at Tita Cielo's and Tito Roel's flat havin' our New Year's Eve dinner party. It's kind of boring so obviously here I am blogging. Haha, what a freaaaaaak. Duh-rn, nooooo fireworks kasi and stuff eh. Hello naman, diba? Pero can't wait for 2007 padin:)

I just want to say thank you for all the friends I have made online :) Thank you thank you guys :)

Thank you din for Bestfriend for being always there for me. Don't want to make this sooo cheesy cos it's 2007 already. Hahaha, connection? Basta, I love you bestfriend :) Mwaaaaaaah!

And to you, yes you :) You keep my world spinning. You made me feel loved. I can never ask for anything more, it's just you that I want until the next years or maybe until forever :) Well, sana until forever na nga. I love you sooooo much babe :) Mwaaaaah! Grabe haa, sooobrang funny mo kanina:P Can't wait to talk to you later :) Happiness again!

No predictions, no resolutions, no whatever. Just wish though that I'd be happier sa 2007. Fingers crossed.
/Edit/

Just firecrackers.

2006-12-28T01:02:00.000Z

A new layout for New Year. Wala lang, trip ko lang bumlack.

I had a good Christmas. Well, medyo lang pero masaya pa din kahit papano :) Laboo, sorry. Medyo may mga na-crossed out din sa wishlist ko:)

Quick post lang ito.

4 days before New Year. Ano kayang mangyayari sa akin sa 2007? Ayy, lame ang New Year dito. Walang fireworks and stuff. Kakamiss tuloy. Nyuurrfff, haha!

7 days before the 25th :)

11 days before your 20th boitdey (tanda mo na talaga:P)

19 days before my 18th boitdey (shux, nappressure ako). Hahahahahahaha!

Ayun lang, ciao!

Deck the halls...

2006-12-22T23:20:00.000Z

Happy Christmas guys!! :)

Ohhhh, 2 days left. I'm excited. Just sooo excited although I'm missing the traditional Filipino Christmas and I want to spend it with the Ani clan and friends. Yay, oh well.

Finally, I'm done with my Christmas shopping. Got to buy them gifts na, all of them. Pero hello naman, super broke ko ngayon. But it's okay cos I actually enjoyed buying and ang sarap ng feeling ng nagbibigay ng gifts :) I'm kind of worried lang kasi baka hindi nila magustuhan eh supeeer simple lang and all. Hay, darn.

Si Mom, obvious. Hahahahahahaha. Ang funny niya soooooobra. Eh kasii noh, super tinatago pa talaga niya yung gifts niya for us kahit na alam na naman namin kung ano yun. At ang galante niya a. Finally, I'm gonna have a new phone na :) Although, I changed my mind na and want to have a Motorola Razr v3im na but Slvr would be fine. That was my first choice eh. Hmmm, I should be contented sa kung anong ibibigay sakin noh. Pero medyo nagpaka-demanding muna ako. Hahahahahaha :)

Anyway, Leona Lewis won pala sa Xfactor. She was really great, ala Mariah Carey and Whitney Houston.

SORRY SEEMS TO BE THE HARDEST WORD. Ehhrm, weeks ago pa ito before the finals. She's gon be a World Class singer.

A MOMENT LIKE THIS, FINALE SONG.

Ayun lang, adore her so much. Watch the videos guys a?? :)

Oh, I WISH TO SPEND MY CHRISTMAS WITH YOU. WITH NO ONE ELSE BUT YOU :(

Change is inevitable

2006-12-18T21:08:00.000Z

Suzi and I were chatting awhile ago and she told me na a lot of things has changed na with our clan. Na this cousin of mine isn't that close anymore with the other one because of sooobrang chismis, back-biting and stuff. And that ang daming nagsusumbong about this certain person kasi she's nakikipagmeet with someone na hindi trip ng family namin. Well, asar ako supeer and at the same time I don't really care just because. I mean, naging problem nadin 'yan before na we were not allowed to meet some friends dahil lang hindi gusto. Nakipag-away pa nga ako sa Tito ko para lang i-explain na you shouldn't just stick with your cousins, na hindi naman masama for us to find new friends. And they don't understand kasi they don't like us being friends with "tibos". In short, they hate "tibos". TSSSSS. BAD BAD BAD. And ehhrm, hello hindi niyo dapat piliin kung sino yung magiging friends namin and all. Haha, oh well. They're just like that. So noooot open-minded, soooo makaluma and soooo nakakainis.

My cousins and I were just like together always before kasi magkakalapit lang yung house namin and all. But they kind of pissed me off as well. They're just too kitid and judgemental. Ewan ko ba. Well, Suzi is my only best bud. Don't get me wrong ahh but all of them are nice people naman kasoo minsan they don't think first before they say something. They judge a person by their looks and just because a person is gay, ayaw na nila. Well, they got mad at me for still meeting with my tibo friends before. How pathetic. Syempre, nagpakapride ako kasi I know that I wasn't doing anything wrong. Meeting my tibo friends isn't a bad thing :) If they can't accept who my friends are, I don't really care :)

Hay cousins, it's just sad cos I think all of us have grown apart :( But yeah, we'll get there. I just know.

ANYWAY...

Hey, thank you for still sticking around. You don't know how much that means to me. You don't know how happy you have had made me for the past two years. I am just simply ecstaaaatic :)

Grabe, hindi mo talaga ako iniiwan even though everything has been like hell. I am lucky for having someone like you :)

YEY!

Shopping with Trish tomorrow. We just don't know where to go yet. Haha :) Oh and yeah, belate happy burrffday pala sa kaniya :) Love love.

Dutzylicious

2006-12-14T16:00:00.001Z

Ayan, new URL na ngaaaaa eh kasssii parang ano yung "FUNKROCKUR" ehhhh. Hindi naman ako Rakista pero gusto ko nga maging Rakista PERO wish ko nga lang. Gusto ko maging parang Tommy Lee. Hahahahaha.

DUTZYLICIOUS. Yah know the song FERGYLICIOUS? Did I spell that roight? Haha. Wala lang, naaliw lang akooooo :)

Nakababad na ako dito sa PC since morning. Hello naman, walang kasawaaan. Ehhh kasii nanood lang ako ng Corpse bride tapos naghahanap pa ako ng pwedeng mapanood sa Youtube. Ehh wala pa 'yung One Tree Hill 4 Episode 11 tapos yung The O.C na Episode 10 ata. Ewan, bitin na bitin kaya akoo. Ano ba 'yun. Ang bagal i-upload ehh. Sana naman ipalabas na here diba? Pero malamang sooobrang tagal na naman. Adik na ako sa OTH at hinhanap ko pa sa YouTube ung ibang episodes na namiss ko. AT na-watch ko na pala yung Virgin Suicides last night, sa YouTube din. Ang galing! Kaaliw yung YouTube. SOO nakailang YOUTUBE naman ako dun? Haha, tssss.

Nakachat ko si Mae pati si Olib. Ka-voice chat si Olib. Haha. Ang galiing. Aliw siya. She's still the same pero parang iba yung boses siguro kasii I'm just not used to talking to her kapag mga ganon ganon. Labooo. We're planning to go to Tokyooo para sa Sanrio World kami ni Mae, isasama namin si Tina pati si Lyra. Pero syempre hindi pa ngayon diba, matagal pa talaga 'yun. Pero we'll make sure na mangyayari 'yun. TRIP TO TOKYOOO! Yey! Or maybe somewhere else na mas maganda. Adik naman kasii si Mae sa Bad Badtz Maru.

I sooooo badly want the Tinkerbell Snow globe. Grabe out of stock talaga siya. Ang kyuut naman, nakakainis. Rawr. Bibilhin ko din pala yung Stuff toy talaga na Tinkerbell and ung Mike/Boo at si Lilo :)

Hala. Natakot ako bigla kagabi akala ko totoo talaga yun eh. Natakot ako sobra. Sige sige, ititigil ko na nga eh. Hindi na talaga. I will keep my word & I get your point. We will be okay, diba? WE WILL BE OKAY. Ganon katindi yun eh.

Sana naman may macross out ako sa Wishlist ko diba? Hahahaha. Kasama na ang Birthday ko dyan :)

Belated Happy Birthday Baby Jack Jack (December 4, 2004). :PThose fingers harrassed Jack Jack. Hmf.

Lazy Asssssssh

2006-12-14T00:59:00.000Z

So yeah, THE CHRISTMAS WISHLIST

Sony Vaio Laptop (Pink/Green); Macbook

iPod Nano. (Hello, I lost mine like 11 mos. ago)

trip to Australia

Visit Shakespeare's house

that Tinkerbell stuff toy, para may partner na si Peter Pan (haha)

~~Motorola SLVR L7~~ AND Motorola Razr v3im

Neil Gaiman's novels (American Gods, ~~Smoke and Mirrors~~, Fragile Things, ~~Stardust~~)

Memories of My Melancholy Whores by Gabriel Garcia Marquez

~~Shoes~~

~~More shoes~~

Skull printed Chucks

Skull lace

~~Money~~

Job

Hope

No Break-up

the bag from Dorothy Perkins

the blue dress from TopShop

plane ticket to Philippines

~~Skull bag~~

Emily coin purse

Emily watch

Morgan watch

Snow globe (tinkerbell)

Hahahahahahaha, okaaaay. Natatawa ako sa list ko. Kahit wala na yang mga yan, basta I hope that the XMAS Wishlist that I have made sa Livejournal ay matupad naman sana. Pleaaase? Kahit yun na lang, okaaay na lahat.

Guys, I haven't really blog-hopped for a long long time for I got lazy. So sorry sa links ko :( But I'll try to visit every one of you from time to time and I'll comment din sa posts niyo :) Basta, wait lang. Eh tsaka kasi, medyo LJ eh :P

BUT OKAY OKAY OKAY, ngayon na!

I'm planing to change my URL (again!) pala since "FUNKROCKUR" doesn't apply to me naman eh although I soooo want to be a RAKSTAR pero wish ko lang diba? Haha.

So, don't walk away

2006-12-03T13:37:00.000Z

Sorry guys, I'm loviiiiin' LJ eh :P

And I forgot to post my Wishlist din, darn. Talk about being too lazy.

We've got a mic and a webcam already! YEY! :) Nice nice nice.

And tomorrow is a special day :) Go, figure! :P

Can't bring myself to light this fuse

2006-11-24T22:58:00.000Z

Christmas Wishlist shall be posted tomorrow, hehe. Oh, I missed Blogger. Been blogging in Livejournal for quite sometime already :)

I'm gonna buy the Motorola hot pink for myself this Christmas :) Well, that is if I've got money left. Hahahahah. But I looove that phone and the Motorola Slvr Red as well. Rarrrrr!

I was soo grumpy when I got to skuul this morning, I don't know why though. Maybe I was craving for something (hmmm). And my seatmate was super irritating. I just wanted to like rip her head off. Hahahaha. And she told I was ultimately being rude to her. Hahahahahaha. OH well.

Took lots and lots of pics last night while watching the World Music Awards 2006 hosted by Lindsay Lohan (who still ever rocks); Love the "Irreplaceable" performance of Beyonce (god, I love her) and Paris Hilton was hoooot :)

Everybody still loves Michael Jackson although his performance last night was awful. Real awful, man. He didn't even sing properly, he just greeted his fans. Haha. Michael freaks :P But yeah, he's quite adorable naman talaga :) Love love THRILLER talaga.

Already have the songs from the Rockstar Supernova Album, thank you Toppet for the site :) I think they're gonna have a gig here cos I saw it in the newspaper eh. Well, while the woman from the bus was browsing through it. I want to watch sana. Burrf.

That's all! Missed the blogger people :)

iRock ♥
i'd like to think so..

XXX: I plan to keep this layout for a loooong looong time :) Swear to swear :P

Worried as hell.

2006-11-21T13:57:00.000Z

I don't know why you have done it again. Sure, you were scared but cutting your wrist is not the way out. And in whatever angle you look at it, you still are coward.

But then again, you should have not been scared of them. Screw them, you know? Don't let them bring you down. Don't let them take over you. And don't ever hurt yourself anymore. Please.

I am very much worried, dear. It's like the only thing you could think of in order for you to solve your problems is to cut you wrist but it's not even helping you at all. Infact, it just make things worst. If you don't face your fear, you might keep on doing it over and over again.

Take care of yourself, *sigh*.

Leona to win!

2006-11-18T21:03:00.000Z

We're currently watching X Factor and I soooo want Leona to win talaga. She's a fantastic singer - super pretty and she definitely has the X FACTOR :) I absolutely am a fan. :) Oh, I wish for her to win talaga. Eh si Ashley kasi na crush ko was eliminated 2 weeks ago.

Anthony's kyuut din from the band Eton Road. He looks gayish but adorable though.

I admire Mylene Klass. Half Filipino and she's a star here :)

Photo sharing.

Dutzy and the doggie

Skates.

Dutzy, Pop

Batangas 2004

My charming brother - JOSH

Dutzy, Terence

Dutzy

W/ Diane

Trish, Krystal, Dutzy

Christmas 2005

Trish, Kim, Dutzy

C O O K I E L O V E

I loooooove reading Gossip Girl :) Still waiting for the 5th, 7th, 8th book to arrive. Argggh. Can't wait. Sobrang one sitting lang talaga. Got to finally read Veronika Decides to Die and the rest of the series of Shopaholic (this book makes me laugh, got teary-eyed din sa last 2 books of the series, Awww) Yes, 8 books in just 5 days. Talk about being a nerdy slash bookworm but it felt great working out my imagination and be carried away with the books I'm reading.

Veronika decides to die is to die for. Haha. Teaches readers on how to live one's life. Very inspiring. And also proves that SUICIDE isn't the answer to everything. Everyone has his/her own MADNESS. Love Love Paulo Coelho. Didn't finish the By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept before though and my book is now with Bestfriend. Oh oh oh well. Going to borrow from the Library na lang :)

Need to prepare my Christmas wishlist later :P

You are my madness.

Rollercoaster ride.

2006-11-17T14:24:00.000Z

I just got home from school and I'm pretty tired. Plus, it was raining pa and the weather's real cold although I love cold weather naman kaso I was really shivering. I left my phone which didn't really bother me that much because I know that no one would text me. And yes, I was right. Haha. Oh well.

Oh, and I love my class :) I'm loving Accounting more and more. When I start answering the questions, I just couldn't stop. And I get kind of irritated (well, not really that much) when Maaza disturbs me. Hahaha. Oh, I love her. She's hilarious. I'm becoming more and more nerdy huh? Guess, I just want to be serious with this course. It was my first choice ever anyway. Eversince, I was a kid I really want to be an accountant and have my own office and stuff :) So yeah.

Our Newcastle trip was cancelled. Badtrip. I won't be able to see Andrei anymore for
they would be leaving the country this December to go and live sa States na. It sucks, bigtime. It's his birthday pa naman. He won't be able to play with Josh anymore. Awww. Tsss.

Anyway, things with us haven't really been going pretty much well and I've got problems on my own din so bigtime depressed talaga. But I'm getting there. We're getting there. You saying that you love me somehow makes me feel better so it gives me hope that we can still be well, better than okay. We need to talk. Pretty badly.

My head aches. Arrgh.

Drink 'till you drop.

2006-11-14T14:12:00.000Z

I've been miserable for the past few weeks. As in sobra talaga. Kakaiba ito. My problems are all piling up na and I can't seem to solve any of them. I'm too stressed out. I need a drink. I need a break. I'm f*cking desperate already, man.

But at least Mae Ann and some friends make me feel better somehow. Pero I still feel sooo alone and all. Jeez, lagi na lang akong mukhang pathetic. I hate it. Oh I need to take this all out na. Or else I'm just gonna explode pretty badly. I can't do this all on my own because I know that I'm not that strong enough. I need someone. I need someone. I need you but I choose not to talk to you about it because I know that you can't help me either. And we've got problems on our own din. And it seems that I just can't simply talk to you; patuloy tuloy ka ng napapalayo eh.

I am lost. So lost.

I need to keep myself busy. Good thing I have school tomorrow. Absurd as it may sound, I seriously love going to school already. I love my Accounting course. I love (well not really that kind of love haha) my classmates although some of them are like older than me. I'm opening myself to them I just don't stay in the corner anymore, I socialize na and hindi na loner. They make me laugh although I don't get some of them and some are weird. Pero kaya nga napapatawa nila ako eh :P Basta, they're plain funny lang talaga. Kakaaliw because I have like super old na classmates. Hahahaha. But they're fun to be with parin :)

I want to meet more and more and more people and not just be a super bum here at home. I NEED A CHANGE. *sighs* But it's not going to be that easy.

Just have to stay positive. Sobrang ang negative thinker ko lang talaga. As in, grabe.

Anyway, I don't know why some people make things hard for themselves. Happiness is knocking on their doors na nga but they ignore and make their life miserable. Hay, go grab it. Take a chance. You'll never know, things might be different than what you have expected. You're afraid of getting hurt? Fine, I understand that but that's just part of life rather than spend all your life thinking of the what could have been(s) and should have been(s). You don't know how much I envy you. You get the chance to be happy tapos iniignore mo lang.

Done.

2006-11-11T20:44:00.002Z

Exhausted byotch.

You know you love me

2006-11-10T19:35:00.000Z

Want to share some pictures :

Diane, Dutzy

Weirdow

Kim, Dutzy

Diane, Trish, Dutzy

Josh, Tito Noli, Dutzy

Madame Tussaude :)

Clown Freaks (Suzi, Dutzy, Jasper)

With Mcdo Bird (Rain, Ate Fhe, Suzi) Sayang Tina didn't join in kasi. Jolog.

Trish, Josh, Dutzy lasing :)

Sleepover days :)

Bus rides

Terence, Diane, Dutzy

Unlikely to be a model.

Love Notes pt. 1

2006-11-09T19:01:00.000Z

Sometimes, we ask ourselves why love leaves us at times when we have given so much of ourselves that there is only little left for us to start all over with. A lot of us have built dreams with people we hoped would be with us forever only to wake up to reality that there is nothing permanent in this world. Love comes and it goes. People share their lives with us and then they leave us. Life is a constant cycle of finding and losing, of making and breaking, of dying and living again.

Let us always remember that in life, there are no mistakes, only lessons learned. In loving, there should be no regrets, only appreciation for the joy it brought us. There is a time when life stops when love ends. But, we don't have to stay in one place forever. Our lives should move on even when everything else around us makes us feel that it shouldn't. For there can only be happiness when we stop living in the past. -Joe D' Mango

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY CHYE! :)

She bares it all.

2006-11-08T21:00:00.000Z

Instead of answering Ate Patty's and Karla's tag, I just decided to share some things about me. Well, some of them may really be weird. So yeah, just bear with THE Dutzy :)

My first real nickname was Queenjoy which was given to me by my godmother. It's real weird actually because it doesn't have any connection with my real name.

People used to call me Dorots but then Mr. Testa, my HE teacher started calling me Dots so yeah, Dutzy was derived from there.

I'm a bookworm. Instead of having Barbies and the like, I have had books. What a geek :) When I'm really into a book, I won't more or less sleep without finishing it.

I always tell what I feel towards the one I like. As in always without even thinking that they might not feel the same way towards me. Maybe some of them found me too forward.

I'm trying sooo hard to lessen my pride.

I'm always in denial. I never easily get to accept realities. Parang laging late reaction. Like when I left the Philippines a year ago, I didn't crywhen I bid my cousins and my special someones goodbye although of course I felt sad, then when we were like in the middle of nowhere it just hit me like hell, my heart was stabbed with so much pain & I couldn't stop crying.

I hate being called emo although I really am emo. Well, you can figure that out with my posts. Jeez, Drama Queen. But there is nothing wrong with that. I guess.

I make palaman spaghetti in bread. Seriously it tastes so damn good.

I eat Clovers cheese with Strawberry Ice cream.

My bestfriend and I used to eat crushed grahams, milk with sugar. And I miss it.

I am a scandalous person in a funny way. No, I don't make scenes just to get noticed it just kind of happen naturally, embarassing actually but I just laugh it off afterwards. Ehem, with my oh so weird and loud laugh.

I've got curly hair (hence, the YM id:curly_verymuch) but I've straightened it. Although, I don't quite understand how my hair got curly when I've had straight hair when I was like 6-7 years old.

Olib, my Bonzai was really the one who introduced me to blogging when I was in 3rd year and my first home was Blogdrive but my layout was crappy and I didn't have any clue with HTMLs so yeah, I stopped. Just resumed when I got here in London and yeah, the bbblogger. :)

Just so you all know, I'm very much inlove with Carlo Aquino. He's my ideal man. Haha! Guitarist, dancer, singer, great actor, and very handsome indeed. Oh, I so want to meet him.

I had like the biggest and most gruesome handwriting in grade school but now it's kind of weird because it just became sooo small. And I hate writing in script.

I've never used blue pen unless black pens are not available.

I love koreanovelas. Well, I just loved it now and it's all because of Neslly. She updates me with the coolest shows. She's like the geekiest koreanoveler. Huh? Whatever.

I listen almost to every genre of music.

I don't sleep without any blankets on although the weather's very hot.

Whenever I'm depressed, I eat and eat and eat.

Being a cashier was my first dream job:P

Loves: Spongebob & Dora the Explorer.

Doesn't forgive and forget easily. I don't know, I just find it real hard. Soooobra.

Simple things make me happy. Yes, I am a very shallow person. I tend to laugh at the corniest ever jokes.

Was happy go lucky. Still happy go lucky and will forever be a happy go lucky.

You don't want to talk to me cause I'm boring. Haha!

A rebel during my highschool days, thus break the rules as often as possible. We had stupid rules, swear. I got suspended during my 3rd year for I changed my friend's answers. Little did they know that everybody was doing the same thing. Brought cellphone ALWAYS. As in ALWAYS. Haha. Oh once, we had this film showing at the AVR and of course it was dark then someone texted me and my phone was in my pocket then it kind of lit up and all my friends were covering it. Haha.

Was a grade conscious and now she doesn't really care anymore.

I want to live in either New zealand or Australia. I don't seriously know why, i just find those places interesting. Or maybe een in Prague, Barcelona :) But never ever in Paris. That place bores the hell out of me although I haven't been there yet. Oh well, I just know :)

I want to have a house which is exactly the same as the Lake house. That kind and nothing else mooore.

I want to be an interior designer/chef/photographer

I daydream, daydream, and daydream.

I will soon design my room with an outerspacey look. Full of stars and moon :)

So those are SOME rubbish facts about. See how bored I was.

I'm afraid

2006-11-07T15:24:00.000Z

that

it

might

never

be

the

same

again..

A lie

2006-11-05T16:20:00.000Z

Need a break ='/

[Edit]

I wasn't just feeling oh so well, so I kind of need a break but I guess I can't abandon my blog just like that.

[/Edit]

H.P, go figure!

2006-11-04T20:12:00.000Z

We're weird.

You and I both.

Just plain weird.

Haha, I love you HP. Ikaw lang ang HP :P

Pero yeah, may kasalanan ka pa sakin. Hahahahahaha!

Happy happy happy! =)

I love love the fireworks. Jeez, ang ganda soooooobbrraaaa. Nakakagaan pa ng loob. Nanonood kami sa may terrace kos we weren't able to go sa park. It's much nicer pa naman kapag andon like last yar. Hmmmpffff.

Gonna answer the tag tomorrow :) Thanks Karla and Patty.

Thank you, Lord

2006-11-02T15:42:00.001Z

... 'COZ ARRA'S DOING OKAY NA :)

and

Thank you Neslly & especially you, Annie (for having a blood type O hehe)

Shuck, scary talaga ang Dengue. Buti na lang talaga. Buti na lang :) Mabait talaga si Lord.

Gusto kong tumakas sa lahat lahat ng nakapaligid sakin. Gusto kong mawala ng parang bula.

Life is pretty absurd at times; that's WHY...

2006-10-29T08:27:00.000Z

There are times when I can't get hold of myself anymore because of too much problems, too much thinking and then depression and paranoia just come next.

But I never ever thought of comitting suicide.

Well yeah, one time when I was in 3rd year highschool but it wasn't that serious though. I just kind of got in some trouble at school and I didn't have anyone to talk to and I felt that I've failed a lot of people especially myself. I planned to jump off our terrace which wasn't even that high. And it makes me laugh thinking about it right now.

Problems really make a person crazy.

So yeah, maybe I would be lying if I have had never considered suicide as an option ever. But that was just one time. I can't imagine myself slitting my wrists; I wouldn't be able to take hurting myself.

Yes, I understand those people who do it but find it really absurd though for they aren't solving their problems they just infact make it worst. You won't feel better after slitting your wrists, drinking some pills or whatever, you're putting your life at risk as well as those people who love you. Then again, I can't blame them for people have different ways of handling their problems.

And apparently, suicide for them is the only easy way out. They are the people that I consider as cowards.

I'm not mocking them or anything, I'm just saying my opinion.

And because maybe, MAYBE, at one point in my life, I might consider it not just an option.

Scary na.

2006-10-27T12:05:00.000Z

I promised myself that I won't be thinking too much about things anymore. Well, I guess I broke that promise again.

It is my first time to be in a relationship hence first time to fall in love. (Yea, I know sobrang infatuations lang talaga ung mga before) And I guess the reason why I'm feeling so sad and blue right now is because I'm just too afraid to get my heart broken. I know, I know na it's part of loving and hindi na maiiwasan 'yan pero siguro kasi baka di ko kayanin. *Sabay kanta ng the first cut is the deepest* Haha! Oo, mahal namin ang isa't isa. Oo, gusto ko siya na talaga pero we can't tell parin. We can't predict the future & unexpected things might happen along the way. Kahit pa gano ako mag-isip sa mga gusto kong mangyari hindi parin natin alam. If we really are not meant to be together, then hindi talaga. I guess, I'm just being open to things, sa mga posibleng bagay. Kaya siguro ganito ako kasi I want stop day dreaming about our fairytale-like future kasi scary na eh and I kind of need to prepare lang.

Shit, I hate myself for thinkin' this way talaga, parang I'm putting an end to our relationship na. Hay, but I don't mean it that way naman. I just want to be like you, I just want to act the way you do, yung tipong you don't pressure yourself & you don't think ab0ut what should happen. Dapat talaga nakikinig ako sayo eh.

I love you. So much. My love for you grows every minute of everyday. I told myself that I shouldn't love you too much, na huwag masyadong maging attached, and that I should hold back my love for you but apparently I just don't know how I'd do that when you always are soo sweet, when you always show how deeply you are in love with me & when you always make me feel how lucky I am to be part of your life and have an amazing person like you.

Oh, you'd just be too hard to let go.

foursome

2006-10-23T16:42:00.000Z

Mae Ann, Tina, Lyra: I'm soo lucky for having you guys! Love looove loooove you to bits :) Conference lagi.

and yea, we are the foursome. haha, jolog.

I want to hang out with you guys na. Play soccer and stuff. As iff I know how to but Tina would definitley teach us. Roight, Mae? Lyra has long legs so baka maka-goal pa siya. Hahahaha. Basta, happiness lagi knowing na andyan lang kayo. Drama. Corny. Whatever.

Mae, just wait. Your hardwork might pay off in time :) You'll never know ;)

Lyra, you're kuul. Swear. You're just simply funny.

Tina, whatever :) Haha. Teach me how to play soccer. Goodluck sa pagiging goalkeeper. You'd have the shoes na din :)

Cheers to a loooong lasting friendship!! Mwah!

I know this doesn't concern the readers (well, if I still have any haha) but I guess I just want to like share how amazing my friends are :)

fool's paradise

2006-10-22T22:00:00.000Z

"So come with me, where dreams are born, and time is never planned. Just think of happy things, and your heart will fly on wings, forever, in Never Never Land!" -Peter Pan

is there such place??

"You know that place between sleep and awake, the place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I'll always love you, Peter Pan. That's where I'll be waiting." -Tinkerbell

wait with me, will you?

nakakasawa na.

2006-10-19T12:12:00.000Z

Ayoko ng mag-isip, nadedepress lang ako. Yay, pero hello naman diba?

sana lahat na lang ng bagay madali.

I'm gonna try something new. Basta, sana may magbigay sakin. Hahahahaha. Labo :P

Not in the mood for proper update. Kailangan ko ng pampatanggal ng depression.

THE Ragna ADIK

2006-10-17T08:45:00.000Z

Oh Lyra's so funny. Hahahahahaha. Tama nga si Mae.

Jeez, she just cracks me up. Hahahahaha.

C'mon guys, do drop by her blog. She's a good writer din :) Matutuwa kayo ;)

/Edit/
It was nice chatting with Lyra yesterday. Syempre puro love yung topic. Whenever I chat with her laging ang lalim ng pinag-uusapan. Lagi kaming magkaiba ng iniisip at explanations about things. Laging iba talaga. Pero buti na lang naiintindihan niya ko although she gives up talking to me about those topics agad kasi ang seryoso na daw sobra. Haha. Katuwa siya, promise. She has like deep opinions and good advices lagi. Kaya masarap kausap :)

Wala lang!
/edit/

Shiiit

2006-10-15T11:51:00.000Z

I'm broken, depressed, pressured & stressed.

Could things get any worse than that?

I'm really falling apart :(

Hindi ko na ata kaya.

2006-10-12T14:15:00.000Z

Nakaw from feistyfork.

Post anything that you want, and post it anonymously.

Anything.

A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love - anything. Be sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post twice if you'd like. Then, put this in your blog to see what your friends (and perhaps others who you don't even realize read your blog) have to say.

Time for an update

2006-10-11T20:47:00.000Z

Oh well, haven't blogged for a looong time. I was like sooo lazy to update lang kasi eh.

No bloggy blog blog hops din :) Tomorrow I'd spent sometime checking out my links :) Yiii.

School is fine so far naman. I enjoy balancing off accounts and extracting a trial balance. Whoooa! Although it confuses me at times and I spent like 2 days figuring out how to answer my homework last Saturday; Takenote: isang number lang 'yun ah. I was like confident with my work na but when my teacher blurted out the answers awhile ago some of them were wrong pala. Oh wasted effort :(

Half term break on the 23rd of October until the 30th. Kakapasok palang break na agad. Well, that's a good thing naman :P 1 week nga lang. burrfff!

Belated Happy Birthday bestfriend! Love love love you. Don't be sad na. Me always here. Cheeesy.

That's all for now.

Bukas ko na lang ikwento 'yung matanda sa bus na gusto ko na talagang itulak. Buti nakapagpigil ako. Haha!

don't fret

2006-10-04T18:04:00.000Z

It's all gone now. GONE. Sooooo get over it.

Tsss, sayang tuloy yung 400 pounds every month. Rarrrr. Biruin mong ang dali dali lang ng trabaho, you're just gon pick Krystal up lang sa school then stay with her til 7:30 pm every night. Ayon lang tapos may 100 pounds ka na every day. Sayang talaga. If napagisipan ko agad before eh pero wala na, wala na. Huli na. Dapat I volunteered myself na agad nung hindi pala pwede si Ate Cathy.

Hay, I'm desperate for a job :( I need extra money pambili ng pasalubong. Actually, broke talaga ako eh kaya kailangan ko talaga ng money for pasalubongs. Sayang talaga. Oh well, wala ng magagawa.

illusions not dreams

2006-10-03T17:28:00.000Z

I dreamt of Chye and Ixe. Weird because Ixe and I are not close and I don't even know him personally. Yay, hehe. They got married and planned to migrate here in London. I picked Chye up sa Heathrow airport, she's all alone kasi Ixe's flight is a week after pa. So chit chats lang and we were riding in a limousine pa. My mom was with us as well. We were planning na i-tour siya around London and all. And they also bought a house in Lewisham (I don't even know if there is such place here) haha. But I think there is. So anyway, she stayed sa house muna and we were taking care of Josh...

then..

tooootooootoooot...

ayun, may nagtext kaya nagising ako. Hahaha.

sobrang sinumurrarize ko na lang iyan. Ang galing, ang saya kasi. Well, I thought that it wasn't really a dream. It seemed real.

I hope I'd have more dreams like this. Dreams that seem real so even though I'm just dreaming, I'd at least feel happy.

;)

2006-10-03T17:21:00.000Z

you are magical.

'nuff said :)

GENIUS!

2006-09-23T19:42:00.000Z

Someone won 1 million pounds in Who Wants to be a Millionaire.

My gawd, I wish I have that lots and lots of moooooneeeeeyyyyyy!

Hahahahaha:P

LJ guys ;)

I'm going dooooowwwn doooowwwn, doooown..

2006-09-21T00:19:00.000Z

Deym, I can't do my first ever homework in Accounting.

I can't even understand it. Sheeeesssssh. Hahahaha.

I'm updating in LJ. Like you people care. Hahahahaha :P

Losing my Religion

2006-09-18T14:03:00.000Z

Wala lang just love Ryan Star's version of that song. Love ko din 'yung Lithium :)

Anyway, it was my first day funk kanina. Pretty much okay, I was late lang for 20 minutes. Hanep naman kasi 'yung traffic at puno 'yung bus. I was planning to ride a cab na nga kasoooooo wala akong makita. I left the house ng mga 7:30 tapos nakasakay ako ng bus ng mga 8:45. Tssss.

Yung guro namin WOW napakagaling magsalita HINDI KO MAINTINDIHAN ehhh kasi naman bulol bulol FRENCH kasi eh. Susss naman. Yung isa puro GOOD GOOD GOOOOOOODDD, nakakailang goooooooooood sa isang sentence. Hahaha. Sheeesssh. We haven't been introduced doon sa isa. Sana naman maayos siya.

Kaarawan ni kapatid nung Saturday, actually nung Friday pero it was celebrated nung Saturday. Madaming dumalo. Nakakaaliw na hindi na nakakabadtrip. Haha. Pero ang galing kasi masaya :) kasi isang taon na siya :) kasi ang gwapo niya :) Mas masaya padin nung binyag ni Josh pero ayos lang. Hindi pa din pala siya naglalakad. Takot ehhhh kailangan mo pang hawakan. Ang sensitive kaya niya pero looove ko padin :)

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Mahal na mahaaaaaaaaaaaal talagaaaaa kita :)

RANDOM.

2006-09-15T20:30:00.001Z

Medyo nawala ako ng ilang araw ah pero andito lang naman talaga ako. Ang laaaaboooo. Medyo tinatamad kasi ako mag-update eh at hindi narin ako masyadong nakakapag blog hop kasi busy ako sa pagtunganga.

Hindi, busy talaga ako. Well, medyo lang :)

CWC here I come!
Well well well, enrolled na ako sa stupid school na iyon (hindi naman siya stupid wala lang akong masabi eh). And si Mom na naman ang nasunod. Tsss. Walang magagawa. Sayang naman 'yung tatlong oras lang na klase at 2 days a week lang. Haaaaaaayyyy.. Eto pa, nagtake ako ng test doon last Tuesday. Sobrang on-the-spot talaga. Wala talaga akong ka-idedeya na may mga ganon ganon pa pala. Qualifying test sa English at Maths. Oh well, kailangan naman talaga nilang malaman kung pwede ako sa course na kukunin ko. At ang dali lang talaga :) Mataas naman nakuha ko kaso 'yung iba minalian eh tama talaga 'yun. Tsssss. Naman. Haha!

...'yung nanay ko sinamahan ako tapos hindi ko na maalala yung pangalan ng tatsulok na mareho 'yung size ng sides tapos sabi niya, itatanong niya daw sa kapatid ko. Hahaha. Hello, exam kaya 'yun. Hindi na ako marunong mangopya no. GOOD GIRL NA AKO! *sabay suka*

wattapanaginipp.
Naku, madalas na akong nagkakaroon ng bad dreams. Sunod sunod na ah. Patay. Sobrang freaked out talaga ako sa napanaginipan ko last night, ay last last night pala 'yun. Namatay daw 'yung pinakamamahal ko sa buong mundo (corny) dahil sa apoy. May sumagi sa mukha niyang papel at nasunog siya, pinapanuod ko pa 'yun sa telebisyon ah. Pero hindi ko napansin na namatay na nga siya dahil doon kasi konting apoy lang naman eeeehhhh tapos may sumulat sa akin na namatay na nga daw. At syempre, umiyak na naman ako ng sobra hanggang paggising ko. Ang laboooo talaga ng mga panaginip ko. Nakakatakot.

Ayyyy, may nagrape daw sakin. Ewan ko. Ang weird talaga. Hahahahaha.

BADTRIP NA AKO! EDIT KO NA LANG TOMORROW. BADTRIP TALAGA.

Be happy

2006-09-11T13:32:00.000Z

Ano ka ba?? Smile ka lang. Walang mangyayari sa'yo if ganyan ka lagi no. Okay lang 'yaaaaaaan :)

Hala, talking to myself. Wehhhhh.

...

Yey! Ang dami ko katext ngayon. Hindi, 3 lang pala. Si Mae, Ate Donna and Felix. Syempre more than 2 is madami na. Hahaha. Laboooo.

I love Mae and Ate Donna! Hug hug hug. Love love love luvvvzzzz. Kissy kissy kissy! :*

Siguro if ever you're gonna enter a relationship you have to REALLY keep in mind na everything's not meant to last forever. Diba? Haha. Just a thought lang :)

4 DAYS before JOSHIIIEEEES BURFFDAY! :D Superman tenenenenenent! My Superman ;)

Stupid love

2006-09-09T00:37:00.000Z

DON'T PRETEND THAT EVERYTHING'S OKAY.. Shiiit.

~~I'm sorry but I don't wanna care anymore.~~ [SORRY! :(]

"LOVE, LIKE RAIN can nourish from above, drenching couples with soaking joy. But sometimes, under the angry heat of life, love dries on the surface and must nourish from below, tending to its roots, keeping itself alive." -The Five People You Meet in Heaven, Mitch Albom

Shux

2006-09-07T18:18:00.000Z

Inggit ako:P Arggggh! Hahahaha!

...

Love it when Josh kisses me. Oh, such a sweet litol monkey :) He's gon turn 1 on september 15 na. Ang kyuut niya, promise! At ngayon ay sinasampal niya sarili niya haha.

ANG KYUUUUTTTT! :)

Nagsusuklay naman. Hahaha! And dancing with the Pussycat Dolls' song Beep. Jeez.

Look at him :) Superman:P

insomniac

2006-09-06T23:23:00.000Z

I'm glad that me & my bestfriend communicate a loooot :)

Already received her uber sweet letter. Yiiii :)

Love her!

Kabaliwan

2006-09-04T23:02:00.000Z

Lumingon ako at nakita ka sa loob ng iyong sasakyan. Papaalis ka na sana ngunit hinarang ka ng aking matalik na kaibigan. Alam kong napansin mo ako na malapit at nakatitig lamang sa'yo ngunit hindi mo man lang naisipan na ako'y batiin. Nilapitan mo ang aking kaibigan at nakipagkwentuhan ka ng masiglang masigla habang ako'y nasa isang tabi at naghihintay sa iyong mga ngiti. Pinagmamasdan ko kayong dalawa habang nagtataka kung bakit wala ka man lang pakialam sa akin. Nagmumuni muni at nababaliw na sa kakaisip kung ano ang dahilan ngunit kahit anong gawin ay hindi ko pa din maintindihan.

Ilang minuto ang lumipas at nakita ko kayong papasok na sa iyong sasakyan. Napakatindi ng lungkot at sakit na aking nadama habang nakita ko kayong papalayo na at naitanong sa sarili kung bakit ganon ganon na lamang ang iyong inasal.

Napaiyak ako sa aking kinatatayuan, pinapahid ang mga luha nang napagtantong panaginip lamang pala.

Hindi ko alam ang pinaaprating ng panaginip na ito. Malapit na kaya ang katapusan ng lahat lahat ng paghihirap?

Ngunit diba't ang panaginip daw ay kabaligtaran ng katotohanan? Ngunit ayoko namang paniwalaan ang kasabihang ito sapagkat napakahirap at napasakit na umasa.

[I need Rob's interpretation!! Hahahahahahahah:P WALA LANG GUYS! Ang drama masyado, ang tagalog din sayang hindi malalim. Harhar!]

Runaway

2006-09-02T20:14:00.000Z

Darkness envelops my world
Happiness not a chance
Oh, I want to runaway
And leave this self behind

Hatred deep within my soul
Loneliness fills my heart
Oh, I want to runaway
And leave all troubles behind

I want to runaway
Oh, runaway
To where rainbow lies
Full of bliss, hope and laughters
To fill the emptiness inside

I can't breathe. It's like my heart has been stabbed million times.

How Filipino are you?

2006-09-02T12:11:00.000Z

[x]You have sung on karaoke
[x]You have bought clothes from ukay-ukay (and wore them)
[x] You have eaten pancit
[x] You have danced a traditional Pinoy dance in front of people
[x]You have been to a free concert
[x] You have never worn contact lenses
[x] You can speak tagalog fluently
[x] You have bought AutoloadMax/E-Load
[x] You like to eat Sky Flakes
[x] You have put oil in your hair
[x]You have washed your/other people's clothes in a 'plangana'
Total= 11

[ ] You know the 'pinoy ako' dance steps
[x] You have been to the divisoria
[x] You have been to Quiapo
[x] You have been to Baclaran
[x] You have ridden on a public Jeepney
[x] You have been to mass at Baclaran Church
[x] You have drank 'taho'
[x]You have eaten halo-halo
[ ]You have hung out outside a sari-sari store and enjoyed it.
[x]You have Jay-Walked
TOTAL= 9

[x] You have eaten dirty ice-cream
[x] You have eaten lechon
[x] You love watching Pinoy Novelas
[ ] You have almost been attacked by a monster
[x] You have went to the province by bus
[x] You have slept on a banig
[x] You have faked your age [sa email lang and on you-have-to-be-over-18 stuff]
[x] You have swam in a public pool
[x] You have peed in a pool [nung litol girl ako:P]
[x] You have been to a PARLOR and got something done
TOTAL= 9

[x] You have been obsessed with a pure pinoy actor/actress
[x] You have been to a public basketball game.
[x] You have eaten ISAW
[ ]You have/had bulate in your stomach
[ ] You own a Magic Sing
[x] You have played Patintero
[x] You have played sipa
[ ] You have bought a dog/cat from the divisoria
[x] You have looked for lice on another person's/animal's head
[x] You have played Bingo
TOTAL= 7

[x] You have been to Pasay
[x] You have taken a road trip by car
[ ] You have thought of using someone for their money
[ ] You have used someone for their money
[ ] You have owned/own a black and white fone
[x] You have slept at around 5am or so
[ ] You have gone a week without bathing
[x] You have gotten drunk
[x] You respect your elders
[ ] You like to gimmick
TOTAL= 5

Now add the numbers up and multiply by 2!
82% PINOI!

From ShEEENNG! :D

ARRRRGGGHHHH!

2006-08-30T20:02:00.000Z

OH, SHUUUUUUUUUT THE FUCK UP!!!!!!

Blaaah. blaaaahhhh. blaaaahhhh. dadadadadadadadadadada.

Dammit, you're blabbing for 30 minutes already. Tsss, hanggang dalawang oras na 'yan.

FUCK OFFFF!

Go and Shoot yourself.

2006-08-28T12:08:00.000Z

Sorry for my previous post. I was like real mad lang yesterday and was actually fuming with rage; Being not able to let it out was fucking hard! If you have just seen my face, I was literally holding my cellphone hard and was about to throw it na buti na lang nacontrol ko pa sarili ko. I was about to cry nadin and gusto ko na itapon lahat ng gamit dito sa house. Mukha na nga akong dragonesa eh, hahahahahaha! SHIIT! I never had felt that kind of anger in my entire life before and sobrang I'm laughing my ass off now kasi ang petty lang ng reason. Stupid.

Richmond college or City of Westminster college?? Waaaah! Ewan ko pa. Choose. choose. choose.

/EDIT/
GUYS, I CHANGED MY MULTIPLY ACCOUNT NA. ADD NIYO AKO OR LEAVE YOUR ADDRESS NA LANG TAPOS I'LL ADD YOU. ETO OH: http://headlights.multiply.com

SALAMAT PO!!
/EDIT/

/Edit (again) /
So I don't know yet which college I am going to choose, sooo people choose for me na lang :P

Richmond Upon Thames College
My class would be just 3 hours lang, 6:30-9:30 pm and every Tuesdays and Thurdays lang pero hello ang dilim na kaya nun. Eh pano na lang if winter na? Rarrr. For 30 weeks lang din pala. So ilang days lang ba 'yun? (7, 14, 21??) Sorry, medyo slow sa Math. And if I'd be studying here naman makakapag-take ako ng Photography kasi every Wednesday 'yun pero same time din. It's kind of far din; need to ride a train pa pero someone told me na 20 minutes lang daw 'yung travel time. Kailangan ko pang i-visit yung school. I don't know yet kung okay 'yung teaching nila and 'yung facilities. Need to consider din those things. SYEMPRE.

City of Westminster College
This college is nearer, 2 buses lang pero mas matagal 'yung travel time. I think I'm more familiar with this place kasi Picadilly lang (ata), basta. PERO THREE DAYS A WEEK and between 10 am-3pm. Hello naman ang tagal, eh ang tamad ko pa namang mag-aral. Tapos baka I won't be able to take up Photography nadin :( ANG ISA SA AKING MGA PINAPANGARAP! WAAH!

Shux, tuliro talaga ako. HAHAHAHAHAHA!

Ano ba? Ano ba? Ano ba talaga hija?
/End of/

blanko

2006-08-27T15:16:00.000Z

SHIIIIIITTTTTTTTTT! I need to release my anger na or else sasabog na talaga ako.

....

Blah. blah. blah. blah. blah.

....

Ang sarap manuntok, promise!!!!

....

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. ANG LABO KO!!! BALIW TALAGA AKO.

Pero galit talaga ako, swear. Sobrang galit.

RARRRRRRRR! ARRRRRRGGGGHHHHH!

FCUKITY FCUK FCUK FCUK!

Who knew? -Pink

2006-08-26T20:41:00.000Z

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
ah huh that's right

I took your words
And I believed
In everything you said to me
yeah huh that's right

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Coz they're all wrong
I know better
Coz you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
oh no no no

I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you a friend
I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now
'Fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
But they knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who Knew

Yeah yeah

I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Coz they're all wrong and
That last kiss I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes it harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep you memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darlin' who knew

My darlin' my darlin' who knew
My darlin' I miss you
My darlin' who knew

Stupidity is the best policy.

2006-08-25T21:43:00.000Z

Hahahahahahahahaha. Okay, just let me laugh real hard first. (inhale, exhale, inhale, exhale) Sorry!:P I'm just laughing because I find my cousin, my 34 year old cousin real stupid. Tssk. He ordered a Nokia 8800 kasi sa eBay 3 weeks ago and until now hindi pa nadedeliver. Eh, he has been contacting them for the past few days nadin; walang sagot. So he asked one of us to call Roshni, the eBay person tapos her mom answered the phone and said that she wouldn't be home yet till after midnight and when Ate Cathy told her the reason why she is calling; she just hung up. Wala nagtatago na 'yun. It was worth 250+ pounds pa naman. Tinawagan ulit, wrong number naman daw.

Why would you buy a cellphone sa eBay naman? Ang kuripot kasi! Hahahahaha! Pwede naman sa shops na mas sigurado kasi more or less same price lang 'yun. Harhar!

Wala talaga akong tiwala sa online stores..

Kwon Sang-Woo, Cholo in Stairway to Heaven. IS THIS LOOOOOOOOOVEEEEE? :)

Forgive me for my kababawan.

2006-08-23T01:04:00.000Z

I just find this soooooo cute. Hahahahaha:P Eh what's the version of this naman kaya sa 'Pinas???? hmmmmm.

Nakiki-nakaw:P

2006-08-22T11:58:00.000Z

This is simple. Just:

1. Emphasize all lines that apply to you.
2. Tag five more people after you finish, complete with links to their sites.
3. Let the person you've tagged KNOW that they've been tagged, for Pete's sake.

I wish I was a different ethnicity.
I have an eating disorder.
I'm short. [5'3, sobrang liit. Tsssk.]
I'm tall.
I think I'm really attractive. [Haha:P]
I prefer winter over summer. [Mas masarap ang malamig minsan;)]
I'm a geek.
I'm a shopaholic.
I'm reasonably intelligent.
I'm attracted to girls. [to attractive girls, lesbooooo harhar]
I'm attracted to boys. [Koreans, haha]
I like British accents.
I smoke regularly.
I drink regularly.
I smoke socially.
I drink socially.
I get drunk easily.
I do drugs.
I will never date a bad kisser.
I've lied to avoid kissing them again.
I brush my hair at least 50 times a night.
I'm religious.
I'm not religious but have morals.
I lie frequently.
I'm impulsive.
I'm hardworking.
I liked "Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind".
"She's All That" is one of my favourite movies.
I'm good at History. -dati lang 'yun
I speak more than two languages.
I enjoy taking pictures.
I like spending money on myself. -medyo kuripot ako sa sarili ko eh:P
I like spending money on others.
I have a regular income.
I earn money on a job-by-job basis.
I pay my own bills.
I rely on my parents for money.
I can cook. [Nako, buttered shrimp ang fave kong lutuin. Carbonara nadin]
I enjoy cleaning. [Mejo, can't take na super madumi ang place]
Tidyness is a must in my life.
I like clutter.
My idea of good music is Britney Spears.
I have heard of Blonde Redhead.
I enjoy Blonde Redhead.
I'm fashion-conscious.
I have good taste.
People tell me I have good taste.
I excel academically. -oh well, dati
I'm told I have yet to fulfill my potential.
I'm good at sports.
I'm good at certain sports. [Not that good, but at least I can do some sports]
I couldn't do sports to save my life.
I'm creative.
I'm artistically inclined.
I wanna be an artist when I grow up.
I wanna be an engineer when I grow up.
I eat when I'm upset. [Haha, kaya ang taba ko lagi akong upset]
I cannot adapt to change.
I'm interested in politics.
I have shoplifted.
I download MP3s.
I've done underage drinking.
I've gone underage clubbing.
I can dance reasonably well.
I can dance extremely well.
I dance like a cardboard gorilla.
I can sing. [Videoke Queen ako eh:P Kapal]
I sing like someone stepped on my foot.
I can swim. [Plain swimming lang.]
I enjoy surveys.
I enjoy surveys when I'm bored.
I keep a journal.
My teachers don't like me.
I enjoy controversy.
I can be a bitch/bastard.
I have a thing for bad boys/girls. [kuul kasi]
I have tattoos.
I've been in a nudist colony.
I'm not sure if I want to have children.
I'm not sure if I'll get married.
I know who I will marry.
I'm interesting.
I'm a good liar.
People enjoy talking to me.
I annoy people from time to time.
I'm a born leader.
I'm a born leader but shouldn't lead.
I enjoy felching.
I have a foot fetish.
I have a shoe fetish.
I watch "Sex and the City".
I don't think Sarah Jessica Parker is pretty. -sobrang ang pretty niya :)
I wanna be J.Lo.
I cut myself.
I've cut myself.
I hate people who pretend to be suicidal.
I hate popular people.
I think cheerleading is a sport.
I'm photogenic.
I live in Chucks.
I think graffiti is art.
I have dated a criminal.
I have been cheated on.
I have cheated on someone.
I have a temper.
I like playgrounds.
I dance in the rain.
I'm obsessed with Shakespeare.
I have tanlines.
My favourite color is pink.
My favourite color is black.
I would classify myself as emo.
I'm musically inclined.
I like listening to music.
I like music-blasting cars.
Thongs are comfortable.
I like flip-flops.
I know what monogamy is...
...and I believe in it.
I wanna be a social worker when I grow up.
I have sibling/s.
My sibling/s annoy me.
I think "South Park" is funny.
I believe in LOVE. [Yea, love;)]

Tag: Nadel, Hannah, Maksen, Tiff, Kevin

Hooked.

2006-08-17T02:29:00.000Z

Hala, kakatapos lang naming manood ng MY GIRL. Ang ganda pala niya. Haha. Watch niyo sa youtube.com andon yung full episodes. Anong episode na ba siya sa 'Pinas? Haha. Ang gwapo ni Gong Chan? Ayy, Julian ata. Ang galing, ang ganda talaga. Pero hindi ko pa napapanood yung 1-11 episodes.

Gwapo ng mga Koreano. :P

'Twas hard

2006-08-16T11:15:00.000Z

. . . real hard :(

Fine, I got to talk to you after gazillion months pero WHATEVER. Still feel sooo bad about it. Hindi ko na lang iisipin masyado.

Badtrip si Papa kagabi, nag-away nga kami. Btw, it was his birthday pala. Great, right? Haha.

Thank you ulit JUICEEEE for the header!:* Ang kyuut diba?:D

Fall apart again

2006-08-14T00:27:00.000Z

I feel like shit. I seriously can't describe what I am feeling right now. I have to take this all out so I would somehow feel better. I have some issues with my family and some "stuffs" which guilt me. I feel so alone and don't have someone to talk to.

I am useless. I am irresponsible. No future, that's how they picture it.

Hopeless,

yahooooooo?

2006-08-13T13:17:00.000Z

Finally, we already have an internet connection. Ang bobo talaga namin pwede pa lang i-safe mode para gumana yung internet. Hindi pa kasi totally ayos yung PC. Basta, may net na. Peroooo, ang dami naman naming gagamit. Hayayayay.

"How I wish that I could be there with you right now so that I could take care of you. I'm sorry. I'm really sorry."

Be invisible

2006-08-10T17:14:00.000Z

I don't want to care anymore, I don't receive the respect I deserve anyway. Somehow, it's also my fault for I am not patient BUT that's just it. I'm not treated that way I NEED to be treated. So, WHATEVER. I won't be toooo pathetic about it.

Pictures:P

Si Bro at ako :P

Gwapo!

Bago gising

:) Wala lang

Thank you guys for the comments ulit! MUCH MUCH APPRECIATED :)

Love love,

Can I keep you in my world?

2006-08-05T14:54:00.000Z

You never fail to surprise and amaze me with your brilliant personality. I adore you :)

Got to talk to Tina yesterday. Haha, baliw talaga yun. Gaga din AT miss ko na ng sobra. Awww... ;) Gusto ko ng pisilpisilin ang mga taba taba niya:P Wala lang, musta mustahan lang. Tawa tawa. Saya saya. :) BALIW! Hahahaha. Sayang 'coz it had to end but there still is next time pa naman. Mas mahaba para mas ma-engganyong (?) tawanan. Miss you na taba (ehem).

My Bestfriend sent me a card last Christmas pala and shit 'coz I wasn't able to receive it. 'Twas returned to her yesterday din. Why kaya? Hay, like nung parcel na pinadala ko last year (September) then hindi rin dumating tapos I paid 4 plus pounds for it tapos it was returned to me ng mga late February then I had to pay for it again. Badtrip talaga yun at buti naman at nareceive na. Lost letters and packages are sooo upsetting. Your money and effort are just wasted. Sorry bes!:(

It feels good when you're still in the before commitment stage. Sobrang butterflies in the stomach (hehe). Paramdaman. May understanding. And kinikilig ako ngayon! Hahahahaha, jologs! Naalala ko kasi 'yung akin.

1. Pumunta kaming Quantum. Naglaro siya ng basketball at tinanong kung anong gusto ko sa mga prizes. Tinuro ko (clueless) then I went out and waited. At boogsh, dala na niya yung mga pinili ko. Eh, konting time palang siya naglalaro. Ayon pala, iniipon na niya yung tickets dati pa.:)

2. Pumunta ako sa bahay nila. We watched a movie tapos super sweet niya. May iaabot siya pero hindi niya binibigay kasi nahihiya pero after 100,000,000 gazillion times of making pilit. Eto na din:

Sobrang ginitech pa niya 'yan :)

3. Pumupunta lang siya ng school para Makita ako pero hindi siya nagpapakita. I know kasi kung anong itsura ng car ng mom niya eh. Haha, at nakikita ko siya:P

4. Hawak ang aking kamay kapag magkasama kami although hindi pa kami.

5. Yung retreat letter niya and yung 10 na letters niya habang asa retreat ako. "Putol putol na naman tulog ko, I always wake up in the middle of the night" , "no goodnight from you again". Haha, kilig talaga

6. More than 100 text messages niya when I turned on my fone na just to say I miss you. (Retreat)

7. Sinusundo ako :)

Ang sarap talga kapag binabalikan. Ako kasi first na nagkagusto sa kaniya so nung mejo nagpaparamdam na siya. Whooooaaaaa talaga. :P

Eh kayo? Ano sainyo?

FOUND THIS IN MY OTHER BLOG: (Sobrang mushy talaga)
You give me the things I never asked for, you caress me with your love, you believe that we would be together forever and that just touches my heart. You love me because of my flaws and you're loving me even more as you discover more weird things about me. I don't know how I can thank you enough for the things even the little ones that you've done for me. And I also don't know how to let you feel how much I love you with all my heart, if shouting it to the whole world would make that even possible then I would definitely do that. What we have right now and what we would have in the future is all I care about. Loving you deeply is all I care about. By the time that we get together, I'm promising you that I won't leave you anymore. OH, how I love you.

SWEET TESTIMONIALS :)
I had no clue that one day someone like you would enter my life
I had no clue that one day I would think that youwere right
I had no clue that I would love your smile
I had no clue looking into your eyes would be worth while
I had no clue one day I would want you to be mine
I had no clue I would miss you
I had no clue I would meet someone as good as you
I had no clue I would feel so close to you
I had no clue you would stay in my mind like this
I had no clue I would have an attraction thatwouldn't quit
I had no clue that you would end up so far away
I had no clue that you would be back here someday
I had no clue you would be so into me
I had no clue that I would want you to bethe one for me

"baby, i love you even if the world is square. i love you if everything was colored green. i love you even if everyday was more than 24 hours. i love you even though were apart. i love you every second that my blood goes through my heart. i love you in every blink of an eye. i love you everytime a star twinkles in the sky. i love you every morning and everynight. i love you when the sea touches the shore. i love you everytime the wind blows the leaves. i love you even if saesons don't change. i love you even if the sun doesn't shine. i love you in every single drop of rain. i love you if fishes can't swim or if birds don't fly. i love you even if there are no clouds in the sky. i love you for every shooting star that falls. i love you even if we were on mars. i love you even if mt. everest was just a hill. i love you even if things are plainly black and white. i love you 'till i grow old. i love you every single second of my life. i love you always and forever. i love you yesterday, today and tomorrow."

AND I LOVE YOU TOO :)

I will follow you into the dark

2006-08-03T15:32:00.000Z

Happy "nth" monthsary tomorrow! :)

Beybe, JUST STICK AROUND.

Thank you ulit guys for all the comments though not that much pero super appreciated talaga and as much as I want to visit all your blogs and comment in all your posts, I just can't coz I only have a maximum oh an hour per day. Pero tintry ko naman eh:) About the smoking thing, I won't ever ever smoke naman talaga eh kasi I find it real bad. I'm just curious how cig tastes like which makes me wanna try it. But I wont. I won't (Labo) 'coz I promised:) And I would keep that promise kasi I'm a good girl. :) Yey!

Bagong bahay

2006-07-30T15:36:00.000Z

Guys, thank you sa comments:* Mwah. Sorry if I just updated now kasi nga naglipat kami ng bahay:P And sira parin talaga PC:( Hmmm, wala na atang pag-asang maayos 'yun eh. Kaya eto namumulubi ako sa kakainternet sa labas. Haha.

Ate Cathy (cousin) already arrived here last Wednesday. Mag-aaral kasi siya dito eh. So we picked her up sa airport, eh wala naman kami car so nag-tube na lang kami. My gawd, napakainit. Hahahaha. Sobrang pawis talaga. Madami na naman akong pasalubong and letters din from my cousins.:) Yeheyyyy! Ang sweet nilang lahat. Hindi naman nakakaiyak yung sulat, just kind of touchy. Eh kasi naman nakaka-miss padin pala ako kasi daw wala na daw "maarte" doon kasi wala na ako. Hahahahahaha. Oo na, sige na maarte na nga ako:P Hayayay, totoo naman talaga. Ako din ang taga-tawa at taga-reklamo nila.:) Oh, may blouses din pala ako na super pretty talaga. Hanep, ganda ng clothes sa 'Pinas. Sa Baclaran lang binili kaya pagbalik ko doon na lang din ako mag-sshopping! Mura pa. Can't wait.

I have an interview sa MCDO on Tuesday na dapat last Tuesday kaso it was cancelled. Todo porma pa naman ako, sayang talaga! Kailangan ko na kasi ng trabaho eh, namumulubi na nga ako diba? Haha, jologs. So sana matanggap ako kahit wala pa akong experience. Hindi na nga ako magiging maarte eh tska kaya ko naman sigurong magwork na. Hindi naman siguro mahirap. Basta ba sa pera eh. Hindi naman ako mukhang pera, nangangailangan lang talaga:)

Ang dami ko pang kailangang ayusin sa room ko. Abubot abubot. Pictures pictures para mas masarap tulugan :)

Si Papa kanina nakakatawa.. Sabi ba naman niya sakin: "Anak, bakit di ka magsigarilyo?" Hahaha. Kasama namin si Mudra ah. Syempre si Mudra todo react naman. Kung anu-ano daw kalokohan ni Papa. Hindi naman talaga ako magninigarilyo kasi ayoko talaga pero MEDYO gusto ko lang i-try:P Kapag uwi ko na lang ng 'Pinas, kami ni Tina mag-ssmoke! Wehhh, asa!

Pahingi ulit ng comments :) Salamat sa mga bumibisita! Labyu all:*

from JUICEEE!

2006-07-30T15:25:00.000Z

1. RANDOM
Take me to LonDON :D
Hahaha, sure sure. :) Kita tayo after 10 years:P Pero I might transfer sa Australia eh. Whoaaa.

2. CHALLENGE
Post some British slang in your blog will ya? Haha
I dunno any british SLEENG eh. Haha, looooosseeer. Ang pangit kasi eh, basta:P

3. COLOR
Orange :D
Oh yep.. Pwede ding purpol, green, yellow, gold, brown and turquoise!

4. LIKE
I like ya coz your such a sweet gurl
Everbody says so:) Pero medyo medyo lang talaga, haha.

5. MEMORY
When I made your banner once
Oh yeah! Thank you ulit. Super. Kaya I didn't remove you na sa credits eh.:)

6. ANIMAL
What's a British animal? Hehe.. Oh and OWL! Coz of Harry Potter and being British hahah
Nakita ko na yung OWL sa Harry Potter. :) We went kasi sa castle somewhere in Newcastle tapos shooting spot siya ng HP. Hehe.

7. QUESTION
How's life in London?
All good naman. No more homesickness na, yey! Haha. Mainit nga lang masyado, burfff.:)

8. SONG
anything from Coldplay, because they are my favorite English band
Ohhh. Love their FIX YOU song :)

burrf. :D

2006-07-24T17:43:00.000Z

Nakaka-high ka talaga. Hahahahahahahah.

O, pagbigyan na. Masaya lang po. ;)

Counting down the days

2006-07-20T17:19:00.000Z

"I wanna travel through time
See your surprise
Hold you so tight
I'm counting down the days tonight
I just wanna be a million miles away from here
I'm counting down the days"

Don't give up on us, baby..

2006-07-16T14:11:00.000Z

I don't know how I'd start this post so I just decided to get lines from the song which I had dedicated to my one and only love weeks ago. I had no idea that this was a Panday song, just knew it after reading Danlen's post.

Pangako natin sa Maykapal na tayo lamang habang buhay.
Ipaglalaban ko ang ating pag-ibig, maghintay ka lamang ako'y dadating.
Pagkat sa isang taong mahal mo ng buong puso, lahat ay gagawin.. Makita kang muli.
Puso'y nagdurusa, nangungulila
Inisip kapag nagiisa
Inaalala mga sandali ng tayo ay magkapiling
Ikaw ang gabay sa aking twina
Ang aking ilaw sa gabing mapanglaw
Tanging ikaw..

I was moved by Danlen's post and was touched by his comment in my last post. It also made me think that GIVING UP would have been the MOST STUPIDEST (yes, very stupid indeed) thing to do in my whole life. We've come along this far. We've been here in this LDR for about a year or so. We had solved a lot of problems and surpassed a lot of trials within that year and then I would just suddenly throw that away for nothing? I admit that I am furious at you at times when you don't even text me just to say good morning, or when you are about to go to school already; you sometimes just bothered to make "paramdam" when you already got home. I kind of feel tuloy that you don't even think of me anymore, you know "paranoia" strikes in especially with this kind of situation. But it all feels better after awhile with you explaining that you are super busy with school which I understand naman because you already are in your FOURTH year and with you saying that it's only I you love. Whenever I am alone, before I go to sleep and even when I'm doing something I always reminisce the times when we hangout, how we make lambing and make each other laugh' how you tease me though you know that I'm so pikon then "susuyuin" mo lang ako afterwards and how we just simply spend our quality time together. Whenever you look at me straight into my eyes and say the magic words, I can feel how sincere you are with me and that I'm not just a fling, that you would do everything for us to last forever and I was sooo right, you do your best for us to stay together though you know that it's gonna be hard and painful. When I left the Phlippines a year ago, I didn't actually know where we stand, we had a lot of problems, we were sooo afraid of what might happen to us after my departure, and we had just been together for 3 months then; so little time. The thought of you wanting to let me go devastated me a lot, you didn't want to take the risk, you thought that you are cursed for loving so hard because everytime you feel this way towards another person they just leave you all alone. I didn't know how to make you feel better, and what to say for things to be alright' I literally didn't know what to do. Then you just suddenly told me that we can do this, that as long as we love each other no one would give up EVER, and that we would be together SOON and won't ever be apart; You promised then I feared not anymore knowing that you'd just be there when I come back and that you won't be involved with other girls. You still are fulfilling that promise. I believe that you can. And I'm promising you that same thing as well. I'm just yours. I will be faithful. You are my only love.:)

We are on our whatever-month-it-is already (hehe). There are still sleepless, crying nights because I miss you a lot and I feel sad that I can't even hug you, kiss you and just simply be there for you. Sometimes it's because of the guilt I feel everytime I think how stupid I was to not spend that much time with you when I was still back home. If I just knew that I was going (hay). I wasn't even able to say goodbye properly, we weren't able to see each other before I left. THAT still haunts me at times. I FEEL REAL GUILTY. Kaya promise pagbalik ko, BABAWI talaga ako.

LDR sure is hard. You can't control things. Everything is limited. Everything is out of reach. But as long as the love is there, everything would still be perfect & MAGICAL. You would still feel complete somehow. You'd still get to laugh so hard like there's no more tomorrow, get kilig everytime you think of "those" moments and get teary-eyed by thinking how much you love and care for each other. HOW MUCH he loves you. HOW MUCH he cares for you. This is a stepping stone to FOREVER. Believe me.

If WE can get pass this, there's not a problem that can't be solved. I love you.

DANLEN, kaya mo 'yan.